烦！

我开始不懂自己应该要怎样做。

当发生状况时，我应该改掉往常的习惯，然后保持沉默吗？？

还是依我往常的习惯开始辩驳，解释？

如果解释多，错就更多。我会被说我好胜。是吗？每次都这样吗？

如果保持沉默，我会觉得我好像没有维护我自己，没有替自己做个解释。。。

最近开始觉得，我说话开始要小心翼翼，不然一不留神，我又收到一颗计时炸弹。说话需要那么的小心，感觉好像没有什么意义了。 那是不是代表我应该保持沉默？

好烦，真的好烦。

很多时候我真的不懂自己得罪了他人什么，可是就是需要看他人脸色。一声不响就把我抛弃在后头，到底这是什么意思？

发生这些事情的时候，心里真的很痛！但是我一直高诉自己，我一定要变强！！不能再为这些有的没的哭了，所以我忍。

我只是希望， 我们各自可以了解各自多一点。。。

可以吗？


-雪乐-

PP = People, Problems

Finally here is a post in English. I do not know why but for the previous posts I just feel that I need to use Chinese to write. Crazy me. My apologies to those who cannot read in Chinese, but since it is my blog I will use any language according to my mood to write ^^

So my weekend was a happy, exhausting and painful one. Happy because Vivi babe came to KL and the 4 of us got to hang out together to shop, gossip and pillow talk. Exhausting because we spent whole Saturday shopping around the boutiques in Bangsar and whole Sunday shopping in Ikea and 1 Utama. Then why it was a painful one as well?

Because my wallet is bleeding furiously now. Sigh.

Thank god CNY is just around the corner if not.... I do not know how the hell I am going to survive for the rest of the month haha.




Well that is my weekend story. Now back to my topic, it seems that everyone around me is having their problems to worry about, including myself.

To see everyone in such situation especially when they are my friends, somehow it hurts me. Read 1 of their blogs and realized that beneath the laughter that I see everyday is actually sadness. Wish I can help them, but I know it is near to impossible as those problems only they themselves can solve. Just like mine, noone can help me except myself.

I have never regretted getting back to this relationship. After all, this was and this is what I wished for. But when problem arises, sometimes it is just quite frustrating. I wish I can solve it but I do not even know what happened. Tell me, what should I do? *sigh*

Hope to see everyone smile again after CNY holidays. I believe that we can go through whatever harsh situations we are in right now. Gambate people!!!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!


-sherril=xuele-

有感而发

当你是很有心参加一些活动，所面对的一切困境你都会是往好方面想，绝对明白发生这些困境的原因。

只有没有一颗热忱的心的人才会觉得，自己被整了。

如果现今我们对换角色，我相信你会明白我们的用意了，


到底那份想参加这次的活动的决心有多少，看了电邮我们都心里有数。

我只能说，机会给了你，要不要争取就看你们自己了。

我希望这一届我期待的真的值得我期待。

自信！要有自信！！


-雪乐-

近况

昨天和朋友去唱K，算是给自己一个放松的机会。

回来KL整两个星期，感觉好像一直在忙都没有机会让自己好好休息。开课的第二天我竟让已经翘课去忙我的东西。 其实也不能怪谁，是我自己做的选择。现在总算已完成手头上其中一个任务的70%。还有好多东西需要完成，这个学期真是需要好好的分配我的时间。

昨天我班的朋友问了我一些事情，才发现到原来大家还不知道我那篇9月10日的post到底在说明什么。也才发现到，原来我以为很明显的事情对他们来说根本 就不明显。大家，真的很抱歉，我不是故意想让你们蒙在鼓里，只是没想到你们真的不懂。之前烦了你们那么多希望你们不会怪我。看到现在的我，大家大可以放心 了吧！不管这样的情况可以持续多久，我还是ok的。这一次我绝对不会亏待自己。

还有，昨天我们终于坚持说英文了。我想我得慢慢习惯以英文与他们交谈。毕竟我的speaking skills很差劲，真的是时候多多练习，所谓practice makes perfect。所以如果听到我说很烂的英文，请不要以为我不会说还要炫耀，我只是在练习，所以绝对不可以嘲笑我。

Anyway,让你们看看我最近到底在忙些什么吧！

长话短说，这学期我参加四种活动，其中一项是我参与了我校社区服务团（下乡团）的协调团。而我这团是负责在kampar campus 成立第一届社区服务团，也就是说带新的一团去社区服务。责任重大，因为在那边从没办过这项活动，所以难免有点压力。希望这一团将可以很顺利的组成。



这些都是在我家客厅弄，每天都像个垃圾堆，从早忙到晚。。这样的生活差不多维持了5天。期间在msn问岳宏要不要过来帮忙，他的答复竟然是给了我一个解释吃素救地球的好处的link =_=



有那两个超神经的男生在，就少不了一些超无聊的动作。



然后在开学前的星期五带着我们的完成品到金宝拉曼大学做宣传。



那一天将会是我们毕生难忘的一段旅途，因为差一点就必须住宿街头。幸好遇到了一位超好心的教授，带我们去买火车票，又带我们去吃晚餐。所以说嘛，槟城人都是好心人哈哈因为他也是槟城人=）



因为一些程序上的问题，所以开学后的星期二又得回金宝继续宣传工作。大功告成后我们两个黄金拍档终于可以卸下70%肩上所背负的责任。十分感谢大家的帮忙，没有你们真不懂要怎么死。所以岳宏，没有你就没有今天的摩天轮哦！哈哈你可算是帮上很大的忙啦！



忙了这个，也该是花更多时间在UTARBall的筹备。真是过意不去没什么帮到我的Ah Head..所以我一定要加油，也要帮帮我家的画家画backdrop。手头上的face recognition system project也需赶快多了解多找资料。。。到了Y3S3我真的开始觉得我在工程系这行真的不行。唉，怎么办？？

过了这个学期，我想大学生活会变得比较乏味吧！除了我的coursemates还有其他和我一起毕业的朋友，其他人都毕业了。所以，这个学期要好好把握在一起的时间！


-雪乐-

好怪的心情

我开始觉得自己很有问题了。

这个已是我第三次更改这个post。写了，改了，再写，再删除，再重写。。。。才发现，原来我表达能力真的很差，所以需要更改。

老实说今天是很开心的，因为碰见了那三八婆ah yee和hs，聊了很多事情，笑得差一点关不了嘴巴。有这样的朋友真的很不错，怪不得是死党，因为是同类。

但是不懂为何，当我戴上耳机，听着电脑播的歌时，心情却随跟着歌曲而改。我记得，我曾经告诉一个朋友说，当我心情低落时，什么歌对我来说都是感伤的。当我心情好时，不管是悲哀的歌或快乐的歌，对我而言都没差，都是一样很开心的歌。

但是今晚开始我要推翻我的说法了。原来，我也可以那么入歌，就像我很入戏一样，竟然在看Avatar时流泪了，而且是看两次，流两次。大概10个看Avatar的人里，只有我一个那么奇怪的人吧！

原本很开心的心情，听了这首歌，心情好像低落了。脑里浮现很多回忆，很多追不回的时光。有很多想说的话，但是又觉得保持沉默是最好的，所以唯有在心里呐喊。我相信，好人是有好报的。你是好人，所以一定会幸福。

不想写了，因为开始头痛，肚子又拉着。。。还是听歌睡觉最好！




-雪乐-

Final Post for Year 2009

My god! I could not believe that this shall be the last post for year 2009~~

Why must time pass so fast??

I spent nearly 9 months in sorrow and that was how I wasted my time. But eventually I survived and learned a very expensive lesson. Things got better and besides my emo matters, the things that I could remember were numerous trips that I went during semester break. outings with coursemates, working life in ACT and moments that I hang out with my great colleagues.

During my 1st and 2nd week in training, time crawled in snail pace. Then suddenly *boom* I was already in the 10th week of training, then 11th week, 12th week and finally today, which happened to be last day.

Besides working and learning new stuffs, there were so many crazy moments with my colleagues. Memories oh memories..... today one even said I would cry. LOL because I teared while watching Avatar does not mean I would cry when I leave you people la ^^

So overall, how was my year 2009?

It all started in an extreme misery state and got no better after half a year. Yet God heard me and I was eventually given a chance to start all over again. Then things got better and better and I must say it ends at a very memorable state.

People, how has your year been? What are your new year resolutions?

Slim down?

Grow taller?

Become fairer?

Haha sounds more like my resolutions huh?? *grinning*

Anyway, no matter it has been good or bad, believe that year 2010 will be better! Leave everything bad behind and start over! At least that is what I am going to do.

Happy New Year everyone! May year 2010 be a great year for everyone of you!


-sherril=xuele-

It is already the 8th week!

Today is a public holiday plus my internet connection is in such a good speed so I decided to update my nearly-gone-dead bloggie =)

Life has been great so far, my training is progressing well and I really enjoyed my days over there. I shall miss my colleagues when I leave for uni again. Part of me wants to stay back and continue training, but part of me wants to end this training earlier because I am lazy haha. Plus, I am still not done with my daily report =(

Like most of my friends, I am entering the 9th week of my training. In these 9 weeks, not only I worked from Monday to Friday, nearly every weekend I spent my time with my uni friends. Just realised that in this semester break I went to so many places. Malacca, Alor Setar, and many places in Penang which I will not go. Plus, I actually joined Penang Bridge International Marathon and finished the 10km run =) Totally love this sem break!

Just last weekend, I followed some of my colleagues (they are all from Shyuan's department) to a photo shooting session. Haha Shyuan and I thought we could learn some skills from them as they have been playing with cameras for some time, so we decided to accept their invitation =)

Last weekend an event named "Pillow Fight" was held in Penang Times Square. Heard that they wanted to create a record of being the largest pillow fight ever held in the world with an estimated of 4000 participants. But what I saw on that day was like maybe 200 participants, or maybe less? Anyway that was non of my business as we just went for photo shooting.

Now, let me introduce the "photo shooting crew" to all of you!!!

Tang tang tang tang!!!!



These pictures were taken when the main actors and actresses were really concentrating in capturing the best angle so everyone was in "natural state". And by the way, "Ceceilia" is Shyuan's new name, given by my classmates =)

There were only 3 DSLRs though there were 5 of us. So we took turns to be cameramen/cameragirls and models. So some pictures look nice and professional yet some look lousy. Haha, I really still need to improve a lot.

I used to have the passion in capturing breathtaking sceneries or still buildings, but after that day, I noticed that I was influenced by them and has started to develop another passion, which is to capture human's priceless expressions.

After spending the entire morning at the event area outside Times Square, we went to Little Cottage for lunch before proceeding to Bagan. I hope that I will be able to improve more haha.

Now let me show you some of my daily life photos in ACT.

Inside my office (PSD), though that is my colleague's working place:



Celebrated my 21st and Shyuan's supervisor's 40th birthday in SOHO, AutoCity. The first lunch I had with so many engineers.



And we were invited to ACT Annual Dinner though we are just trainees. Grabbed the chance to take pictures with seniors, but missed the chance to take picture with our MD. Sigh.



They are all so nice, friendly and crazy so both me and Shyuan have no problems in adapting ourselves. My seniors are always willing to give me advices about my future, explaining in detail about things that I do not understand and are always so happy to teach me new things.

I hope that for the remaining weeks, I can fully utilize my time and learn more things.


"要懂得争取，training是最好的时候让你学习。"
"You must know how to request and grab your chance to learn."


That was what my colleague told me. I hope I can do that.


-sherril=xuele-

Sunset

Hey people!! Haha I know I have not been blogging for ages, sorry! Should have massive updates but currently I am in Shyuan's house blogging away while 'borrowing' her internet connection, so I shall update only a bit of me =)

My internet connection is really giving me lots of problems. Feel like strangling the technician =_=

Anyway, just to inform, I am having fun working at my company. Great colleagues and stuffs. Shall blog about it another time.

And all these weekends that I had after I came back Penang, I nearly spent most of them with my coursemates. Hang around and brought them to various places for sight seeing and places with yummy delicacies. Gosh, thinking of Penang food just makes me hungry ^^

Just came back from Alor Setar yesterday. 6 of us spent 2 days 1 night over there visiting places where Alor Setar people will not visit. Haha. Sounds familiar right? Like Penang people will not go Pulau Jerejak >.<

This trip is surely one that I will always remember =) It meant more than merely a sight seeing trip, and I really appreciate it.

Like sunset, the process is too short. Happy and good moments always do not last long. The most important thing is that we really appreciate the whole sun setting process and cherish every moment of it, keeping the best in our memories and let it stay there forever.



Of course, we hope that our good moments can last forever. But rather than just hoping, I would say, the moment now is the most important thing. No matter what will happen in the future, by cherishing and enjoying every moment of now we are having is the best thing we can do.

I have learnt my lesson. Be happy and be good to myself are what I shall always keep in mind =) Dom Dom, Xue Le is happy so no worries ya!

"乐" - Le (happiness)

So what can I say more?

I love sunset.




But I definitely love YOU more ^^



-sherril=xuele-

Sis, Happy 21st Birthday!

There is this someone who once walked into my life and have always stayed in my heart. Though we are now parted in 2 different places, but we are still keeping in touch with each other from time to time. So who is this girl?

Today is her birthday and finally she has turned 21 years old! Haha Ee Wen, you are old already!!

I knew her ever since my first tuition. Is it the first tuition? I can't remember. All I could remember is it was an English tuition taught by my aunty. She was then my tuition mate, schoolmate, classmate and good friends. We have known and be friends for more than 10 years. And for some reasons, we became sisters in high school...

We became quite distant friends ever since I came to UTAR and she attented Disted in Penang which later on she went to INTI in Nilai. Once in a while we chatted through MSN, but most of the times either I'm busy or she'll be busy. The very last time we went out together was during her summer holidays this year. It's about half a year d huh?

Reminiscing back the old memories, I realised that over these years many things happened between us yet we still are friends, one that I still consider as a trustable and good friend.

Back then in primary school, we were good friends. Became "Pengawas Kebersihan" together so that we could go on duty together, which was sweeping the staff rooms corridor every Friday morning. I still remember she's the one I told secrets to and we had crush on the same lucky guy =) But well in the end, neither of us were together with him. Every recess time we would sit at the same old place in the canteen eating the same old thing. I could still remember she always ate bread prepared by her beloved mom.

Eventually we grew up and went to the same high school. But in the whole 5 years, we never have the chance to be in the same class. But still, we got to meet every now and then in school. In high school, we were boths guides and went to the same camp together in F2. I remembered we had disagreements before, argued and parted. But somehow, the bond between us was still there. At that time, I was just too immature.

We made new friends in high school and eventually we tend to hang out with our own gang. Soon we graduated but still keep in touch. I hope that sis, we can still still be sisters forever. Miss u greatly... hope you'll do well there! Take care. Lots of hugsss from me, and lots of love too!

Happy 21st birthday, Wen!! May all your dreams come true =) Hang out again when you are back alright? Take care!


-sherril=xuele-

A Singaporean Friend

Kenny, is a Singaporean who came to Penang for his 1-month industrial training. He is training in the same company as Zhi Ling in Polytool and came along with us last night to Farlim night market.

I always feel proud when people give awesome comments about Penang. As usual, I asked him how he felt about Penang in his 1 month stay here. His answers were:

"The food is really nice."
"And the people are friendly."

Well, food of course I will definitely say they are delicious. But I am really glad he felt that Penangites are friendly =) Then am I friendly as well?? Haha.

Anyway he made a statement which made this 1st meeting and probably the last one an unforgettable one.

After Zhi Ling fetched me and Shyuan we chatted non-stop on the car. I would say I totally had no image in front of this new friend haha. Anyway when we reached and got down the car, he whispered to Zhi Ling about something which made Zhi Ling laughed like hell.

Zhi Ling was so excited and went on like:


ZL: "Sherril, Sherril, I want to tell you something about what Kenny said just now."

S: "What did he say? Must be something about me lo."

ZL: "He said he was shocked to see you SO SHORT."

S: "........."

S: "Haven't you seen people like me in this height??"

(I can't hear properly what he said except this sentence)
K: "我吓到。在车里我还以为你蛮高的。"
[trans: I was shocked. I thought you are tall when you're in the car]

S: "......."
S: "没看过这样矮的人meh?新加坡没有这样高度的女生meh?"
[trans: Haven't you seen such short person? Singapore does not have this kind of girls meh?]

(I think this was his answer)
K: "Nope, I haven't seen before."

S: "............" (laughing hard)


Then I quickly told him that my height is at least over 150cm and I am surely NOT the shortest in uni. Haha nothing to be proud of but nothing to be ashamed of too. I find his reactions and comments very funny because normally people's comments about me are "You are short."

But his was like "How come there is such short person on the earth?"

Haha. But he is indeed a friendly guy who happens to be in the same course as us. After chatting more with him only then I knew that there are not much chinese night markets in Singapore and he has not seen Taiwan Sausage and Lok Lok before. Cool because Penang is full of them and he can eat as much as he like since he will be leaving on Friday.

Anyway this night market trip left me wondering about 2 questions.


1. Are Singaporean girls all tall and there are really no petites at all???
2. What makes he think that I am tall in the first place based on my voice???


-sherril=xuele-