Reflection

I'll just leave the Beijing post to the next one. Still could not settle down everything and upload my photos. Haha I really procrastinate a lot, don't I?

Just now I was looking through my unpublished posts. Some of them were simply incomplete drafts, but some of them were posts that were intially written to be published but I changed my mind in the end not to post them up. I realized my posts for the past half year were mainly about emotional feelings after my nasty break up.

Those posts reflect nothing but sadness. Total sadness with no motivation to live on my life.

Life sucked for so many months.

Does it still suck now? Maybe yes, maybe no.

For the moment, I feel quite contented. Maybe because spending much time with my family for the past few weeks lighten up my mood and let me forget about my sorrows and painful memories for the time being. They did me a favour for not bringing up the subject about him. Yes I finally told my mum about it.

Life is quite good right now, though there is still a missing piece of puzzle in it.

But isn't life is meant to be like this? It is the missing piece that drives your life. If you have no dream, no wish, then there will be no more motivation to live on.

I know I am pursuing a hope which is somewhat quite impossible to achieve, but who knows? Maybe this hope can lead me to the way I wanted, or maybe something better?

Life is all about taking risks. Just that we need to make sure that we have evaluated the consequences before taking the risks.

So, I shall continue on with my decision. Being tough and not to give up is something that I have learnt through this hardship.

Fate, will do its job when the time comes.....


-sherril=xuele-