Do you believe in love at first sight?It was the 1st day in university. A brand new life as a university student, having to make new friends and adopt to the new environment. At that moment, the future was still so bleak, everything was still so new, so strange.
Of course, classes in the very 1st week, especially 1st day were boring. But something caught his attention during computer lab practical session. Nope, to be precise it was someone.
Seated in front of him was a girl, who was talking away with her newly-made friends. Maybe her cute petite figure captured his attention. Maybe her friendly characteristic made her noticeable. Or maybe it was her charming and cheerful smile that melted his heart. Something about her just made his heart skip a beat. He knew instantly that she was the girl, whom he was waiting for all this while. It was love at first sight.
Being the quieter type, he was always sitting at the back row during lectures and tutorials with other friends. As for the girl, she was always sitting at the front row, trying to pay 100% of attention in classes. Therefore all he could do everyday was to look at her back, once in a while stole a glance at her when she turned over. He was all about her.
She, of course was not aware of this. It was her new life too, as a university student and away from home. Though she was an observant person, she actually did not notice that there was a pair of twins in her class. Not until 1 day when her friend told her,
"Hey, do you know that we have twins in our class?" She was dumbfound.
"What? Where? Who? How could I have missed out?" she asked.
Her friend showed her the names of the twins on the name list, and then pointed the twins to her.
"There, the 2 sitting behind there are the twins." "Har? Why they don't look quite alike?"she asked again. He was one of the twins. That was her 1st impression about him and learnt about his name. She could remember him easily because she found that he looked kinda alike to a tennis player back in her hometown. They remained as just stranger classmates until 1 day....
Through friends somehow he got her msn. And since the day he added her, they were chatting off almost everyday till past midnight. As the girl had a habit of sleeping late, she was glad that she had a companion to accompany her to chat online. Being a girl who loved to make friends through the net, she knew she had met another clickable cyber friend. Everyday they had endless topics to chat about, and soon they became close net friends.
Though they could chat endlessly in msn, they had never chatted face to face before in class. She thought of greeting him in lectures since they already knew each other, but his facial expression kept her from doing so.
Maybe he would like to remain as cyber friends. Hmm... just let it be, she thought to herself. Actually, he was shy and that was why he never had the courage to talk to her, yet.
She would always remember the day they had their first face to face conversation. It was time to collect class fund and she was the so-called treasurer of the class (helping the class-rep with the money collected). He went up to her to pay his share.
"Erm, what about your brother?"she asked him, staring into his eyes while flashing him her usual sweet smile.
"Oh, I will help him pay too,"he replied, looking at her with a smile.
For that instant when her eyes met his, she thought she saw some love sparkle in it. His eyes were like telling her that he likes her.
"Oh, how could that be? I must have mistaken,"she scolded herself. She had always trusted her sixth sense but that time she felt that it was so impossible that she dismissed that idea almost immediately.
That was their 1st conversation, so short yet so memorable.
As days passed by, 1 day she received an sms from a stranger, wanting to be friends with her.
Must be 1 of my classmates again, fooling around, she thought. So she asked who he/she was. The next reply immediately made the person recognisable. Although that person did not want to state who he/she was and wanted to remain mysterious, she knew it was him.
How could she be wrong? She was an observant person and everyone has their unique way of texting either in msn or sms. His way of texting has already given his identity away =) And that was when they started texting each other, almost everyday besides msn-ing.
She thought he was a nice friend to chat and share her joy and sadness, so she did not mind texting him everyday. He was there to console her when her friend passed away. He told her about football, she told him about tennis. Both of them love music and most importantly, they love blue.
Both of them would never forget their 1st conversation through phone. All the while they were just texting each other without any phone calls. That was why when he called she was surprised.
"Hello?"she answered.
"Hey, our football team has won! I myself have shot in *7 goals!" He was so happy that he wanted to share his joy of victory with her at the 1st moment.
"Wow. Congrats!!! You are so great!!!!!" She was happy for him because she knew that football was his passion.
The call surprised her because he could have texted her instead of calling her. Her best friend told her that maybe he likes her, but almost quickly she dismissed that idea again.
"Noway. You must have thought too much." She told her best friend.
As time passed by and they grew closer, sometimes some sensitive words made her think that he was just fooling around. You know, like best friends. Being open-minded, she fooled back. But that was when she knew that she had gone beyond the best friend line.
She did not know what captivated her heart about him. She did not know when exactly did she fall for him. She did not know that the fall would have made her fall so deeply....
She wanted to keep herself a distance from him. She wanted to refrain herself from falling for him because she did not have a good past of relationship. But her efforts and his sincerity made her fall even more deeply...
1 night, for the very 1st time, he went to her hostel to find her, together with other classmates. They were actually meeting another friend but they called her down as well. He bought "super spicy" or "ma la" Taiwanese sausage for her from night market as requested. They wanted to challenge her level of spiciness. Well to admit, it was quite spicy but she got through it. Why not? With him there everything became so possible =)
Their classmates talked with friends and left both of them. It was awkward at first. They had never chatted individually before. But somehow something just popped up their minds and they carried their conversation casually, enjoying every bit of it. A friend teased him that she was his gf, but of course he denied because they were not, at that time.
Soon, he began to find her regularly, spending time in the TV room. They talked, read newspapers and watched tv together. 1 night while he was reading her palm lines for fun, chemistry just pulled them together. Soon they were holding hands and she was resting on his shoulders. Everything happened so naturally.
She knew she had to pull herself out. That night after he went back, she texted him stating that she was not ready for a new relationship yet. She was worried that this could just be the wrong feelings like she had in the past relationship. He assured her that everything would be fine, so why not just give both of them a chance? She considered for some time but gave in eventually because she was deeply attracted to him.
And that was how the 2 of them began their most memorable romantic love life.
She was his 1st and he was her 3rd. But to her, this was the best 1 she ever had. For the very 1st time, she was in a serious and steady relationship, enjoying every bit of life with him.
She knew she had found the right person in her life.
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Everything was so simple at that time. No worries, no problems..... By stepping out 1 step and giving each other a chance, they shared the happiest moment in their life. A chance, could actually do such a miracle.
Sadly everything lasted for 2 years and 4 months only. Then she did the most irrational thing in her life. She said the words that should not be said, resulting to an end of their relationship. It was an argument after all, but why did she let her emotions took over her?
He was deeply hurt. The girl he loves so much wanted to end the relationship. He wanted her back but she said she wanted to stop and rest.
He wanted her to be happy. If she thought that being with him was a confinement, then all he could do was to leave her and let her find her freedom. He must give up on her in order to let her give up on him to continue on with her life.
Has he really given up on her?
She would like to tell him that, that night what she said was so untrue. She did not mean to really leave him behind. How could she? He was the guy she wanted. He was her everything. How would she want to leave him? It was a really big mistake of her to do so....
But, he would not want to listen to any of this crap anymore. Yeah, how could you expect someone to forgive you when you have hurt him deeply?
She wished and still wishes that, if only he can give each other another chance.
Sometimes, love is sweeter the 2nd time around so why not try to give each other a chance?
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This shall be the FINAL post about this entire emo stuff. I promise I will not talk about it anymore. *He* has enough of it and I have had enough of it. Guess all this while I was the one thinking too much. I am sorry for bringing you so much trouble.
If one day you happen to wake up, do let me know because I am awake all this while. I am most sure what am I doing.
Since what I wrote offended you, I sincerely apologize to you. I am sorry. May we have the sweet memories of ours kept in our minds forever.
I love you.
-sherril=xuele-
