Reflection

I'll just leave the Beijing post to the next one. Still could not settle down everything and upload my photos. Haha I really procrastinate a lot, don't I?

Just now I was looking through my unpublished posts. Some of them were simply incomplete drafts, but some of them were posts that were intially written to be published but I changed my mind in the end not to post them up. I realized my posts for the past half year were mainly about emotional feelings after my nasty break up.

Those posts reflect nothing but sadness. Total sadness with no motivation to live on my life.

Life sucked for so many months.

Does it still suck now? Maybe yes, maybe no.

For the moment, I feel quite contented. Maybe because spending much time with my family for the past few weeks lighten up my mood and let me forget about my sorrows and painful memories for the time being. They did me a favour for not bringing up the subject about him. Yes I finally told my mum about it.

Life is quite good right now, though there is still a missing piece of puzzle in it.

But isn't life is meant to be like this? It is the missing piece that drives your life. If you have no dream, no wish, then there will be no more motivation to live on.

I know I am pursuing a hope which is somewhat quite impossible to achieve, but who knows? Maybe this hope can lead me to the way I wanted, or maybe something better?

Life is all about taking risks. Just that we need to make sure that we have evaluated the consequences before taking the risks.

So, I shall continue on with my decision. Being tough and not to give up is something that I have learnt through this hardship.

Fate, will do its job when the time comes.....


-sherril=xuele-

Back after such a LONG break

Wow, been a super crazy hectic week.

Reached Penang from Beijing on Tuesday night after sitting in the plane for the whole day. Then the next day - Wednesday I came back KL.

But right after that I regretted for coming back so early. Thought of skipping more classes so I spontaneously decided to go back to Penang right after my classes on Friday. After sending my brother off this afternoon, I boarded the 3.30pm bus and came back to KL.

I must be out of my mind. But I definitely did not regret going back during the weekend. Not only because of the good food (everyone was taking turns to treat my brother his last meal before flying back to Brisbane), but most importantly I get to accompany my brother and see him off! Sigh. Hope he can come back more often!

Will update about my family trip to Beijing soon. One word to describe the trip - AWESOME!

Currently need to sort out the photos (thousands over photos with 7 cameras) and get all my activities done. After AGMs in June, I will be free!!

Right now let me just show you a few snapshots of my trip. The rest will be up when I am free.

The few in our family who managed to climb up this high @ Great Wall of China.
Yeah! We did it!!!

The complete 12-people family photo @ Bird's Nest.

Yea my new bf. LOL do we look alike?

By the way, I realized I have aged, a lot. Oh god, I am talking like I am an old woman. No wonder my brother calls me Lau Yee. Damn him 'dua zheng' haha.

While I was looking through my Beijing photos and glanced at my MSN display picture, I noticed how young I was in the dp and how old I looked in my trip photos. Gah, depression indeed affects one a lot....

Alright wanna rest earlier tonight. Has been a very long day for me. Nitez!

-sherril=xuele-

I will be off for 9 days!

I am finally done with my packing!

Just started to pack at 11pm when we are supposed to reach the airport by 6am. This is really last minute packing.

Fooh! Penang is so damn freaking hot. I hope that for the next 9 days the weather over there will be at least cooler than here. If not, I think I will melt before I can make it back to KL!!

If only the hot weather can melt off my fats so that I can slim down, but the fact is it is NOT! So please... I really hate HOT and DRY weather!

Another thing is, I hope Swine Flu is not serious over there. Because I do not want to wear mask walking here and there! Really cannot imagine myself wearing the mask (especially the traingular type) and taking pictures. LOL.. anyway for safety purposes we have bought sufficient masks. (those which look like the surgeon mask)

This will be a historic trip for our family. Why historic?

Because this shall be the only and most probably the last trip that everyone can make it together. My grandmum is already old. Walking for a very far distance is a challenge for her. This is the 1st trip that all her 3 sons and 1 daughter can go with her. Plus, her precious grandson who just came back from Aussie will go with her too! (referring to my bro)

This is the largest family trip that I have ever joined, which consists of 11 people! This will be so much fun! A break for me before returning to KL. No more nonsense to think of for the moment..

I might come online if there is internet availability over there. Take care people and happy holidays!


p/s: I appreciate that you are willing to help me, despite our wrecked relationship. Thanks!

pp/s: I shall learn 北京呛 haha


-sherril=xuele-

Jessie

I instantly fall in love with her at the first sight. She was so cute, pretty and adorable.

She has a pair of eyes, big and mesmerizing. Some of her hair were tied with 2 pinky rubber bands which makes her even 'kawaii-er'. Ah, if only she can let me hug her more and play with her hair. I can still remember the touch of her hair, smooth and silky.

Her name is Jessie and she is only 3 months old.

Let me show you a picture of her. I am sure you will love her as much as I do!

The best shot of the day!


She enjoys the tickling :)

Well, she is Ee Wen's pet from the Shih Tzu family. Isn't she a cutie?

Today after meeting up with Xuan Yi, Jureen, Jhu and Wen @ Old Town, I fetched Wen back. Haha not only because I was kind enough to fetch her back, but the most important reason was because I wanted to play with Jessie!!!

Wen - Jessie's owner and my good sis

Really had a nice time at her house, chatting while playing with the puppy. Her mom even said I looked very fine. Haha, yeah I guess I looked better compared to the previous months. But sometimes it is just the look, isn't it? But anyway, I really enjoyed myself over there.

Jessie made me thought of Fifi, my 1st and only puppy until now. I wonder where is she now and who is her owner? She must be a very big dog by now. She was very very active, just like Jessie. Always run here and there and loved to bite things.

Haha still remember how Vivian used to hate her. Right Vivi? ^^ Yee and me cried when she was sent to my friend's house. I know you miss her as much as I do, Yee. Ah, those good old days....

Hmm, despite having a great time, a lot of things were actually running in my mind after I was home today. Very disorganized thoughts. I need some time to clear them off.

Sherril's current status: Processing and analyzing her thoughts.......


p/s: Swine Flu, can you pls stop spreading around? I DO NOT WANT to wear mask la....


-sherril=xuele-

Birthday Celebrations Part I

So on my mum's actual birthday, my dad brought us to some Malay Seafood Restaurant for dinner. He drove us there and I footed the bill. Haha.. as my mom's birthday prezzie.

Well, this restaurant was located at a quite secluded area at Batu Maung. It is called Kampung Teluk Tempoyak. If you know where is the South Bay office/showroom at Batu Maung, then you will be able to a sign showing Kg Teluk Tempoyak just opposite it.

The turning into the kampung is just opposite SouthBay.

Note that the road leading to War Museum is not the route to Kampung Tempoyak. My dad at first took the wrong turning and went into some creepy narrow kampung road without any street lights at all. It was really spooky as that time was already nearly 8pm.

The road leading to Kampung Tempoyak HAS street lights and is NOT EERIE at all. So remember this!

Look out for this name once you are on the right track.

Well, this restaurant serves a variety of FRESH seafood. Really quite fresh. The procedure there is like this:

1. Park your car and choose where you would like to sit.
2. Go to the special area where you can choose the type of seafood you would like to order and the amount of it.
3. Go back to your seat and continue ordering other stuffs besides seafood like vegetables and drinks.
4. Wait for your food to be served.
5. Enjoy your food.
6. Foot the bill.
7. Leave the place.

Ok I know some of the steps are crap LOL. Anyway, basically you need to choose your seafood first before settling down.

The special place to choose your seafood.

See the waiters? They wear standardized vests, some even wear coat. Hoho, they dress up like a bit proffesional. They do not wear t-shirt or baju kurung. Plus they are polite.

My rating for the food is average, since I am not really a fan of Malay food. But the seafood is really fresh. And the most important thing is it is quite cheap!

Imagine, we ordererd:

1. a '3 Rasa' do-not-know-what-name fish (quite huge)
2. kappa (the siput type)
3. fried sotong
   
4. sting-ray panggang
5. kangkung
6. malay style hokkien char

Sorry for the poor photo quality. It may not look nice in this photo but trust me the food was nice. I swear.

Guess how much was the bill??

About RM65. Cheap isn't it?

And we realized we were not the only Chinese customers because another Chinese family came when we were halfway through. They looked like regular customers. So, maybe you guys can try out =)

Mum and I

It is advisable to go earlier so you can enjoy the bay view. We reached there quite late and all we could see was a pitch black surrounding the bay.

Well we had a quite feeling meal and was satisfied. Ah, luckily my mom enjoyed it if not her birthday would be so miserable hehe.

3 of us

Before heading home, we dropped by my dad's office to complete his work. I took the chance to play around his office. Yeah PLAYed haha.


*Edit: My dad is NOT a dentist.

Clay-made skeleton, NOT real bones please!

Gigantic teeth!!!

Vivi, are you proud of your logo design? =)

Basically, my mum had a nice birthday I assumed haha. Too bad a bit 'ho sek' my brother was not back yet at that time.

Will continue with part II later. That will another celebration post.


p/s: Wolverin not very nice. Just like the front part when everyone showed their ability.

pp/s: I realized I am still thinking about you all the time....



-sherril=xuele-

Brother is Back!

Wohoo~! Brother is back!!!!

Yeah! He was back on Sunday, reached Penang International Airport at about 2pm. My parents, grandmother and me went to pick him up. I think the happiest person should be my Ah Ma haha.

While we were having lunch, my grandmum brought up the subject about gf, again. Haha this is an OBLIGATORY question whenever he is back. Excluding my cousins who have married, now my brother is the eldest grandson in the family who is not married yet.

Muahaha my brother's answer was of course "not yet". Then my grandmum actually said something like this in hokkien, "Aiya, I do not have much time already. If have gf must faster tell me."

Haha my brother quickly replied, "Do not worry Ah Ma, you will live very very long. If I have gf you will be the 1st 1 to know."

Wahlau, I am not even the 1st 1 he is going to tell. What a brother haha.

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Before reaching Malaysia, he dropped by Taipei for 2 nights and sort of tour around there. I am so jealous! If only the economy is slightly better and I have more savings.....

He was bragging about how nice and how he should spend more time over there in Taipei. Arrgh, makes me even want to go and have a look for myself.

Taipei 101 damper baby

Anyway, he did something silly while packing upon coming home. I think he sent me an sms when he was still in Brisbane Airport. He told me, " I think I forgot to bring my specs back. So the 1st thing is to get me a specs first."

I was totally =_=''. My dad was laughing away when I told him this.

You will be even =_='''''' when you hear this. When he reached Penang he told us, "Actually I brought back the spectacle case. But when I opened it, I realized there was no specs in it."

OMG to max, really. How can he be this BLUR???

******

Anyway, shopping with him is so nice. You know why?

Because I get to go into shops that I will never set my foot on! Haha what I mean are those high-end shops which I am not able to afford even just to walk in.

He was like buying and buying, always converting to AUD to see whether the things are cheaper than in Australia. He did not pack much clothes back, in fact his luggage was only filled with souveniers and a few pants when he reaced Penang. Haha because he planned to buy clothes here.

He always did that whenever he comes back. According to him, not only sometimes the prices over there are more expensive, it is sometimes extremely difficult to find sizes for Asians. Aiya, ah moh lang all so tall, we Asians (esp my family) not that tall, really quite difficult.

Ok la, now some pictures of the souveniers he brought back. Muahaha finally I got my iPod!

*Edit: The colour of iPod for both pictures is PURPLE! It is NOT BLUE. Guess the editing of photos kinda changed the colour of it without me realizing....

iPod Nano - Purple

Sadly, the blue not nice :(

Magazines he bought for me from The Eslite Bookstore @ Taipei.

Wine

Well, there are other things but I am lazy to capture the pictures.

Going to watch Wolverin later. Wah I am so outdated man. Have a nice day everyone!


-sherril=xuele-

TOU Gathering

First of all, today is my mum's birthday!

MUMMY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Haha, age is always a woman's secret. So those of you who have seen my mum, guess how old is she?

Yesterday night was TOU's gathering. But in the afternoon I had a shopping date with Chian at Queensbay. I know she was bored at home so I asked her out. See, I am so good!^^

We shopped, we ate and we drank. But well, of course not alcoholic drinks.

Both of us bought a top at Nichii. I quite like mine, though the price was sort out of my budget range. But in the end I still bought it, so gotta save more money to spend during my upcoming family trip!

I know I look fluffy. (incorrect angle)

We stopped by Shihlin for a very late lunch. While consuming their recommended dishes, we exchanged news about friends, uni happenings etc. Always love the time we spend together my dear!

Shihlin Taiwan Street Snacks outlet @ Queensbay

Handmade Oyster Mee Sua - RM6

XXL Crispy Chicken - RM6

Our last stop was Starbucks before we headed back to my neighbourhood to fetch Shyuan to TOU gathering. Drank our favourite drinks and continued with our chatting and gossiping. Haha KLiCK, you are among our topics! See, how important you are to us! =)

Caramel Frappucino and Green Tea Latte

TOU gathering was set to 7.30pm. But all of us know, Chendy and Jureen's time are always the INTERNATIONAL time, normally about 1 hour late. (Sometimes even later!!!) LOL it has been years and yet their habits are still the same. No wonder they are real sisters la!

At first they wanted to go E-Gate. Then while we were on our way, they called up and informed us that the venue has been changed to New World Park. Fine.

After all the jamming at Coaster Highway (I forgot that it was Friday, should not have used it as everyone was going back Butterworth), finally we reached there slightly late, around 7.40pm.

See? Not able to move at all.

And when we called them, do you know what Jureen told me?

"We are still at home. Chendy is blowing her hair dry."

WTF?! We have already parked our car at New World Park and she was still at Relau blowing her hair?!

Haih, they are really "wu yao ke jiu"!!!! No medicine can cure them man!

Anyway around 8.30pm they finally reached.

As the place they wanted to dine was closed due to renovation, we finally dined in BBQ Chicken. Do not ask me nice or not because I just ordered soup and drink. No main course for me as I was really still full at that time.

Me and my 8 years les partner - Chendy haha

Jureen and her bf - Han Bin

Group photo
From left: Shyuan, Kai, Chian, Chendy, me, Jhu, Jureen

Our final destination was New Lane after picking up Jess and her bf. Well, both of them were supposed to join us earlier but her car broke down at Cititel that area. So after our dinner we fetched them to New Lane for their dinner and continue catching up stories.

We had the fun of the night. Chatted, joked and crapped non-stop. How can we stop nonsense when Chendy was around? She even bullied our sisters's boyfriends. LOL

Ah made me think of those times when I used to bring him out during TOU's gatherings. It is an obligatory thing to do to introduce your bf to every sister. Haha.. very happy for Chendy and Jessica.

Reached home around 1am. Not very late but brain was already not functioning. Maybe I was lack of sleep from the previous nights. Ah... back in Penang is so good!

Yea sisters, I am looking forward to Friday for our sing k session!!

Later dad will be bringing me and mum to some place to celebrate my mum's birthday. Once again, Happy Birthday mummy!


-sherril=xuele-

Back In Penang!

So people, I am finally back in Penang!

Yeah I sound happier, don't I? ^^

In fact, I feel very much better.

Been thinking for the past few hours, and somehow I found a reason for myself to live on my life to the fullest. Though I cannot say I have let go (how can 1 let go instantly I wonder?), but at least I am sort of like motivated to continue with my freaking life.

I just hope my motivation can be continuous.

But still, I can't imagine him with another girl. Really, tak boleh la! Sigh.

Anyway, still thinking how to break the news to my mum. Suddenly today while I was driving, she asked me, "What was it which you mentioned that you have lots of things to tell me in your previous sms?"

*Tng...* I did not expect her to raise this subject up in the car. Because the conversation that I planned to hold is expected to be in my living room. Yeah, I even planned how to start telling my mum. LOL I must be crazy.

So for the time being, I think she thought I wanted to give up my studies in Engineering =_='' Because after I answered, "Can I don't want to return to KL?" she said something like, "I don't know. You go and tell your dad. You were the 1 who said you wanted to study engineering."

Yeah la yeah la. Haihz.. She at the 1st place did not want me to take Engineering because my Add Maths and Physics back in high school suck like hell. It was me who insisted to study this field. Why? Fated I guess haha. If not I would not have met him. LOL I must cut this crap out.

So, still in planning status. Let me think of the perfect way to convey my message to her without needing her to nag or worry about me. Then I will take action.

Lastly wanna show you the lamp that I bought from IKEA before coming home. Remember I said before in this post that I wanted to get this lamp?


So I bought it when HS went shopping with his parents. I tumpang-ed his car back as I was so lazy to take bus. Thank you sai lo!

Mine turns out like this in the dark.

The inner part. The bulb is like a shining egg, don't you think so?

Actually nothing special with it as the design is super simple. But I have always wanted a lamp for my little table beside my bed. Haha... so finally I got myself 1.

Alright, that's all. Nitez everyone!

-sherril=xuele-

Goodbye

I think I did the wisest choice on how to begin my semester break, that is NOT to follow my coursemates to Genting.

If I had joined them, for sure I would have ruined their fun by now, like I have predicted.

That was why I declined their offer and became the only girl (out of 6 girls) who did not go. Sorry fellow mates, I knew no matter what happened tonight, whatever I see in Genting will only make me recall memories that are meant to be locked up for the rest of my life.

So, I spent these 2 days watching movie - Prison Break Season 3.

The connection was functioning in tortoise speed, but I prefer to stay at home. Thanks for the invitations my dear friends to movies and sing k, but really, I am not really in mood for those. I will just spoil the fun.

Did not watch many episodes since the line was slow, but did something else.Something that I wanted to do for the last time to ensure that I would not regret in the future.

The reply was negative, like what I have expected. But it was written in a tranquil tone, which I have not expected. I thought the reply would be harsh again. But no, not this time.

I thought no matter how harsh or how negative the reply is, I will not cry because it is already in my expectation and I am already used to it. But in the end, tears still drop down and I cried like baby.

Thank you Fern2 for sparing your time to listen and cry with me. Haha... miss you already! Why you so fast go back Klang?

There are some things that right until now I still do not understand. I wish I can know the reasons behind them, but I guess I will never get to know. Never. Right? I believe what my heart tells me. So, it is ok.

Well, I will try to keep my promise and I hope you will too. The time limit that I gave myself to get over you is up. After this semester break, I hope things will be different.

It will be a difficult process, definitely, but I guess it has to be done. It is time to give you back your freedom and let you fly. I have no more rights to constrain you.

I guess I am not the 1 for you anymore. After all, I am not good enough, not tall enough, not slim enough, not..... I was never the best 1, was I? You deserve better, way way better.

But you, will always be the special one in my heart.

I love you, I always do.

Goodbye my love! Wish you all the best!




-sherril=xuele-

I Just Want to Go HOME

What I want to do is to leave this place, now.

Sadly, I'll only get to go back on Wednesday. I wonder how am I going to kill the rest of my time especially tomorrow?

Bloody time, please tick away faster. I beg you.

And my dear internet connection, can you please function a little better for these 2 days? Please? At least allow me to read blogs and watch movies if not I will be bored to death.

Sigh.

Though I have finished my final paper this morning, I do not feel the joy of completing exams. I feel empty. LOL. I screwed up all my papers, which I did not expect it to happen. Hope that my parents will not be mad at me when they see my results.

I am not a consistent person. My grades go up and down. Over these years I am quite certain with this fact. I will never stay up high for long, because I am never meant to be there. I would rather call myself an average person who just aim high. LOL

I wonder how long more do I need to heal myself? It is killing me inside, slowly and deeply. I am so numb now with only coldness surrounding me.

All I want now is to go back to a place which belongs to me, a place that will always greet me warmly. This is the place where all of us regard as - HOME.

-sherril=xuele-