FEAR (haha exaggerated)

The thing that I fear and worry the most is bound to happen, maybe.

I just hope that my sixth sense and conclusion are correct and not the other way round. Nope, better not.

I got lots of advices and comments from people around me, but in the end, it still depend on me how I want it to be, isn't it?

Took my 1st paper this morning - Moral. Hmm I would not say I did ok. Maybe below average and I hope I can pass this stupid LAN paper and not to repeat it in the next semester. I practically crapped nonsense in the essay part as I did not know how to elaborate and relate my points. Whatever.

I should be studying at this moment for my next paper on Monday - CAD/CAD but I am currently in PJ. My second trip to here in this week alone. Guess I miss my mom and she's going to leave tomorrow. Plus, my cousin got her pay already so she treated us a hearty meal just now at Delicious (Mid Valley). My 1st visit there, not bad.

Thank god our kind lecturer gave so much tips on which slides to study for finals if not I think I am going to die of insanity. Even after he gave us the tips, the slides that we need to read and memorize are still so damn a lot. ALL REQUIRE MEMORIZATION. Arggh... it is killing my brain cells. When it comes to Thursday, it is my dying day. MED is such a sucky subject for me, maybe I am NOT suitable in this field after all. LOL

Sometimes I think that things work out in a weird way. Take my cousin for an example. She and him were strangers at first and turned out to be good friends not long after that. Then they started a steady relationship for 3 years then suddenly boom, things went hay-wired. Suddenly I received the news that she has broken up. WTH. Then things got worse and they are now like total strangers. Don't you think that this kind of thing is soo peculiar in a way? First you were strangers. Then you got to be close and intimate. The next moment the game is up. From lovers, you become strangers. There are just unidentified reasons behind them. Really sweat. LOL I am not much better than her anyway.

Well, gotta go back to my studies now. Good luck everyone!

p/s: Hope you're getting well.

-sherril=xuele-