FRUSTRATION

I just feel like releasing my frustration here. I know it's a bit contradict to what I've always said about not wanting to portray any hatred here in my blog. But this post is not about hatred. It's simply just about what I felt today...

I'm sick of what had happened. In fact, I'm tired already. Quarrels always happen between us because of some stupid small matters. Yeah at times I'm in the wrong, but hey, I'm NOT ALWAYS in the wrong k?

Most of the times, even when I'm not in the wrong, I'm the 1st one to step in and apologize. For what?? I don't know. I just hope that there won't be so much quarrels in the future. Friends always ask me to just close one eye, just let it be since you're always in such weird mood lately.

BUT WHY AM I ALWAYS THE ONE WHO HAVE TO GIVE IN???!!!!!

Friends say you have your dignity, maybe I've said something that hurt you. Well, maybe I DID hurt you, but I was just telling you the truth. I told you face to face, not in front of everybody. The reason I told you my point of view was because I hope that you realize what people around you may think about you. Yet, you flared your temper at me, as though I've humiliated you in front of everybody. GOSH!

I also have my dignity, you think I'm not hurt when you said some awful things to me? You said you were just joking about those things, but hey, do you know that I CARE what people say to me? Joking and teasing once in a while is ok, I'm not the small gas type. But a frequent teasing is something that I HATE especially if that person is you!

I'm not being sensitive, but it's an issue about one's patience limits. I always tell myself that you're just joking, don't make a big fuss about it. I'm always the one who think in positive to console myself that you don't mean to hurt me with those words.... Why can't you just accept what I've said in a positive way too??! If you don't like me telling you things like that, then just let me know and I'll just keep my mouth shut and leave you alone. There's no such need to lose your temper, isn't it?

I'm so damn disappointed. Was in such a cheerful mood this morning and now everything is spoiled. Today's a no smile day for me. But I hope you guys have a nice day. I'll do great after some time..... no worries.

-sherril=xuele-