What is LIFE?

Finally I get to online (previously there was connection problem with my house line) and I should be blogging about something happy since I have just celebrated my 21st birthday. But something is holding me back.

Am I really 21?

I do not think so.

I do not look like 1. I do not act like 1. And my thinking is still so childish.

Suddenly, someone's words affected me a lot.

We always think how unfortunate we are, how the world is unfair to us. But really, are we that unlucky? Are we really the MOST unfortunate ones? To think of it, my answer is "No".

Perhaps, I should learn not to limit my sight. I have been living a comfortable life the moment I was born. I should be grateful for what I have had now and not to complain about it. In life, there are so many more things which are more important. But have I ever thought about that?

Because of some problems, I thought about giving up life. But there are people out there who faced greater challenges than me, yet they continued on fighting for it. What have I been thinking all this while? What is life?

Suddenly, I am lost. I am not sure what am I pursuing for in life. Happiness? Love? Success? What is my priority and what should be my major concerns??

I think I have no rights to talk about WHAT IS LIFE. All those shits that I have been talking all this while... I talked without understanding the true meaning behind it.

It is time for me to refresh my mind and look things in another perspective, viewing things in a larger picture. I need to grow up, I really need to.

Your words have stunned me. I am sorry that I have offended you. I am truly sorry.


-sherril=xuele-