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So, finally I have finished writing a post for you =)I was actually halfway through the first one, but somehow when I got back later to finish it up, I just feel I need to write another 1. Haha you know, my mood when I was writing just now and now is totally different. Do not misunderstand, I am not moody or what and also not because of you. Maybe, it is because of the exam stress or some other things.
I have been pondering Vivian Tan, how on earth can I get along well with you?
Needless to say, we know that your remarks and comments are nearly always hurtful. Yet deep down in our hearts we know that you are nearly always right. You have been pouring cold water onto me all this while. Haha did you realise that among you 3, I have never called you before and cry about my problems? I just realized that ^^
I guess it is because I have this habit of choosing the less hurtful advice to listen to. I did not want to be hurt even more. People have been telling me, you should go and let Vivi "slap you hard on your face" so that you can wake up. Haha, yeah I know but I chose not to because I was avoiding the reality.
To be frank, there were times I was mad at you, but the madness just lasted for a few minutes. Should I say you are the most rational and more to reality person among us? Or Yee? Haha... Fernie is definitely out of the list, she is too naive =) Sometimes I admire you secretly (because if I "guang ming zheng da" admire you will "boi kiao") because you can always be so daring and rational. Unlike me, always so useless.
Maybe what you told Fernie about the latest "news" was correct after all. Fernie told me last night when I called her. (Fernie, sorry k for bugging you, again) Vivi, actually I have thought of that before too. Maybe I am just stubborn. Wah, finally, I admit I am a stubborn girl. LOL.
But with you 3 around and the other sisters as well, I know I still have you all eventhough I am left with nothing else. The darkest days are over and I have really recovered. Really, I would like to apologize to you and the rest for my bad attitude and letting you all down again and again. I knew from the start 1 day when I look back I will feel that I was silly, but I was too lost that time. True enough, looking back now made me laugh my ass out of myself. I have wasted my past half year doing useless things.
I am not saying the things in the paragraph above because of the fantasy happened. Nope, not at all. Whether it happened or not, I will still be saying. Though your mouth is really really really toxic, I must admit you have your point clearly stated. Just, the way for you to show concern for your friends is a bit... harsh. Haha..
I know you will say, "Sure la, I am Vivian Tan and I am like this. Must be "tok" enough to let you all "wake up"."
Haha "dai ke jeh", maybe you should just be a little bit more gentle? But I guess, that will be weird lo if 1 day you become like this.
Oh tell you 1 more thing to let you feel happy. That day when I hang out with Fernie and the rest, she mentioned about you always asking her about how am I? Haha siao cha bor, why didn't you ask me yourself? I did not tell Fernie when she told me, but actually I was secretly touched. TOUCHED. Babe... I was touched because of you. Wanna cry liao haha. Sorry that I made you worry about me all the way from Penang k? (or you weren't?) I actually thought you already "mou ngan tai" me since I myself already "mou ngan tai" myself.
Sigh.
Anyway, ask Fernie to fill you and Yee in with the details about my call to her last night ya. I am lazy to tell again. But please... DO IT PRIVATELY in your msn. Do not spam my chatterbox with these things.... hehe
So, the question - How on earth can I get along well with you?
People who do not know you will surely hate you to the max for your "chao chui" habit. Guess because we are BFFs that is why we know that deep down in your heart, you are just concern about us. Thanks babe, I really appreciate everything though I might hate you sometimes hahaha.
That is all that I wanna say. Love you, babe ^^ I mean it =)
p/s: Eh, the other 2 of you, don't be jealous k since this post is not for you all. Haha, one day if I have the sudden urge to write, I will. Miss you all!!
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-sherril=xuele-
