If I had joined them, for sure I would have ruined their fun by now, like I have predicted.
That was why I declined their offer and became the only girl (out of 6 girls) who did not go. Sorry fellow mates, I knew no matter what happened tonight, whatever I see in Genting will only make me recall memories that are meant to be locked up for the rest of my life.
So, I spent these 2 days watching movie - Prison Break Season 3.
The connection was functioning in tortoise speed, but I prefer to stay at home. Thanks for the invitations my dear friends to movies and sing k, but really, I am not really in mood for those. I will just spoil the fun.
Did not watch many episodes since the line was slow, but did something else.Something that I wanted to do for the last time to ensure that I would not regret in the future.
The reply was negative, like what I have expected. But it was written in a tranquil tone, which I have not expected. I thought the reply would be harsh again. But no, not this time.
I thought no matter how harsh or how negative the reply is, I will not cry because it is already in my expectation and I am already used to it. But in the end, tears still drop down and I cried like baby.
Thank you Fern2 for sparing your time to listen and cry with me. Haha... miss you already! Why you so fast go back Klang?
There are some things that right until now I still do not understand. I wish I can know the reasons behind them, but I guess I will never get to know. Never. Right? I believe what my heart tells me. So, it is ok.
Well, I will try to keep my promise and I hope you will too. The time limit that I gave myself to get over you is up. After this semester break, I hope things will be different.
It will be a difficult process, definitely, but I guess it has to be done. It is time to give you back your freedom and let you fly. I have no more rights to constrain you.
I guess I am not the 1 for you anymore. After all, I am not good enough, not tall enough, not slim enough, not..... I was never the best 1, was I? You deserve better, way way better.
But you, will always be the special one in my heart.
I love you, I always do.
Goodbye my love! Wish you all the best!
-sherril=xuele-
