Lately I'm not who I used to be
Someone's come and taken me
Where I don't wanna go
If I knew exactly what I have to do
In order to be there for you
When you were feeling low
And all the things we ever wanted
Were once yours and mine
Now, I know we can revive it
All the love we left
[chorus]:
Everytime I kiss I feel your lips and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realize that
Everytime I hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away
Save me, I've fallen from my destiny
You and I were meant to be
I've thrown it all away
Now you're gone
It's time for me to carry on
But Baby I just can't go on
Without you by my side
And all the things we ever wanted
Were once yours and mine
Now, I know we can revive it
All the love we left
[chorus]:
Everytime I kiss I feel your lips and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realize that
Everytime I hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away
We can survive it
All the pain we feel inside
You relied on me and now I've let you down
Now, I promise you forever
I will be the best I can
Now, I know we can revive it
All the love we left
[chorus]:
Everytime I kiss I feel your lips and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realize that
Everytime I hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away
[chorus]:
Everytime I kiss I feel your lips and
Everytime I cry I see your smile and
Everytime I close my eyes I realize that
Everytime I hold your hand in mine
The sweetest thing my heart could ever find
And I have never felt this way
Since the day I gave your love away
[www.azlyrics.com]
This is so true... How I hope I can revive it *awww*
-sherril=xuele-
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Life back in KL
Coming back here makes me emo. I wish I have the power to make things right. But life is not this way right?? I prayed and promised that I would stand up once again in life, but emotions just overtook me and finally I broke down, again on Monday night. I just could not hold back my tears and sadness anymore. Why? Why? Why?
I told my friend that how I wish I could just sleep on forever with all those sweet memories and leave those sad stuffs behind. Immature of me huh? What to do? That was the easiest way out. And I was whining like a baby about wanting to return to Penang and never come back here again. At that very moment, I just want to leave everything behind and return home.... I have no more courage to face the challenges that are ahead of me. No more.
After 1 night's sleep I finally felt better. Haha.... I don't know how to describe but now I really cherish the time I spent in lecture classes because that will be the only time we get to talk. Well, say me stupid, say me crazy, say me out of my mind, but Dominic, I still want to 'camp in the forest' =)
Yesterday evening my sai lo msn-ed me and asked me whether I wanna have dinner with him. Well, initially I was not planning to have any dinner as I was not really hungry but well, I did not mind to accompany him. Well, I thought I need to breathe some fresh air to lighten my mood. Then he suddenly came up with this idea about going to Jalan Alor for dinner. He searched his way through google and off we went with the route details.
After some wrong turnings and asked for directions from people, finally we reached Jalan Alor. Haha then only we realized that it was actually just situated behind Sg Wang. SWT =_='' Well, the place was quite happening. There were CHINESE food practically along the whole road. Since we were newbie, we simply chose a shop which was situated at the very starting point of Jalan Alor - Cu Cha Restaurant.
View from outside.
Cu Cha Restaurant.
All Chinese people =)
We ordered:
1. Sesame chicken + 1 rice
2. Fried Yee Mee (Mun Yee Mee)
3. Mixed Fruit Sai Mai Lou
Sesame Chicken.
Fried Yee Mee (Mun Yee Mee)
2 fellas singing for money.
We could even see KLCC from there.
Happening!
Well, I remembered that I stated this sentence in my Facebook particulars - Have faith and believe in yourself, and the world will be as beautiful as you want it to be. Hmm.... I guess it is easy to say huh? I believe and have faith, but somehow it is not that beautiful to me. Maybe when I wrote that the world was beautiful with him.
Alright need to go back to my CAD assignment. It is already week 4, we will need to deal with more and more of tutorials, assignments, projects, reports and tests. Foooh~!! Study life is like this!!
-sherril=xuele-
I told my friend that how I wish I could just sleep on forever with all those sweet memories and leave those sad stuffs behind. Immature of me huh? What to do? That was the easiest way out. And I was whining like a baby about wanting to return to Penang and never come back here again. At that very moment, I just want to leave everything behind and return home.... I have no more courage to face the challenges that are ahead of me. No more.
After 1 night's sleep I finally felt better. Haha.... I don't know how to describe but now I really cherish the time I spent in lecture classes because that will be the only time we get to talk. Well, say me stupid, say me crazy, say me out of my mind, but Dominic, I still want to 'camp in the forest' =)
Yesterday evening my sai lo msn-ed me and asked me whether I wanna have dinner with him. Well, initially I was not planning to have any dinner as I was not really hungry but well, I did not mind to accompany him. Well, I thought I need to breathe some fresh air to lighten my mood. Then he suddenly came up with this idea about going to Jalan Alor for dinner. He searched his way through google and off we went with the route details.
After some wrong turnings and asked for directions from people, finally we reached Jalan Alor. Haha then only we realized that it was actually just situated behind Sg Wang. SWT =_='' Well, the place was quite happening. There were CHINESE food practically along the whole road. Since we were newbie, we simply chose a shop which was situated at the very starting point of Jalan Alor - Cu Cha Restaurant.
View from outside.
Cu Cha Restaurant.
All Chinese people =)
We ordered:
1. Sesame chicken + 1 rice
2. Fried Yee Mee (Mun Yee Mee)
3. Mixed Fruit Sai Mai Lou
Sesame Chicken.
Fried Yee Mee (Mun Yee Mee)
Mixed Fruit Sai Mai Lo
Well, happy because we had dinner together and chatted about friends, family and other stuffs. If Bern is staying nearby would be more fun haha then we 3 'siblings' could be united. Now he accuses me that I am being unfair =_=''
2 fellas singing for money.
We could even see KLCC from there.
Happening!
Alright need to go back to my CAD assignment. It is already week 4, we will need to deal with more and more of tutorials, assignments, projects, reports and tests. Foooh~!! Study life is like this!!
-sherril=xuele-
CNY holiday update
People, how is CNY? Mine was not bad, got to spend real quality time with parents, relatives and friends. Now that I am already back in KL, I miss my home, my new painted-blue room.... I still want to enjoy the love and care given by my parents >.< I am such a baby girl huh? Well, I can't help it =)
This post is basically about how I spent my CNY holiday. For the first time after so many years in UTAR I had such a long CNY break!! WOhoooO~!!
Reached Penang at night.
It was Vivi's birthday. Hoho.. she finally turned 21 years old. Yeah she wants to be FOREVER 21!!
23-01-2009 (Friday)
Vivi's birthday party. She purposely delayed her party because me and Fern could only make it on this day. Well for the sake of her besties, she delayed it =) Overnighted at her house with fern, yee, mei na & wan ting.
Vivi & her Chris - best couple of the year. I am so JEALOUS!! :P
Family picture. Papa and his 'kuai lui's =)
My 'son', whom I am very proud of =) Siao siao, his results in uni (dentistry) is only either Distiction or High Distinction! No need to hope anymore, his is attached haha.
p/s: Please ignore the height difference!
All the Peng Hwa girls!!! Peng Hwa = PCGHS = my high school
Fern and I helping Vivi to clean up. So good of us *self praise*
Our Ang Pows for her. These are her best prezzies because we gave her cash! Now she can spend them on her long-dreamt tattoo =)
Present from her lecturer. It is a pair of HANDMADE earrings that is why it is so expensive! Her lecturer made these earrings and sold them in a shop.
An extravagant prezzie from her college friend. OOhhh she loves it!
All her presents.
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24-01-2009 (Saturday)
Helped my parents with the preparation stuffs and went to buy those fishball thingy at "Goh Tiau Loh" (Road 5) market.
At night, we had a girls' night out at Mois. Well, Fern suggested it so we just tagged along. That was my 1st time in VIP wohoo!! Met Kevin, Uncle Benny and my god brother there..... After having supper at about 3.30am at McD, Fern and Yee overnighted at my house. We chilled and chatted for sometime before falling off asleep =)
Vivi is pretty, isn't she?
I love you babes!! *muacks*
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25-01-2009 (Sunday)
Reunion dinner!
Haha this year is my family's turn to host for it. Met my relatives from my dad's side. Nice to see everybody again. Too bad my brother was not back for it =(
But something made me went to sleep happily. Hehe... after so long, this was the 1st time *HE* answered my phone and talked nicely to me. Oh god, I miss those sweet old times when we talked and talked over the phone......
Steamboat with the usual food.
My parents and I. Oh I miss my brother!!!
Look, my face and neck are so red! That is the result of drinking too much wine hehe =)
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26-01-2009 (Monday)
The BIG DAY!
Hehe... after dressing up, everyone went over to Shyuan's house to visit my beloved grandmom. Then everyone gathered at my house for steamboat breakfast. About 9.30am we set off to "bai nian". Well the same old routine every year. Got ang pows from the same people, snack a bit here and there and soon we went back our house for steamboat lunch again. Yeah, 3 meals of steamboat consecutively!!! LOL...
The food. I know my brother misses them :P
Isn't this packing CUTE???!!
Kinda boring after lunch because well, something's missing in my life and I just could not act as if nothing happened. So, stayed in at home till night. Then me and mum started grumbling about what a boring day it was. Haha so for the 1st time, dad, mom and I went to somewhere just for a stroll. Kinda enjoyed that trip because I felt so home... I miss them now =(
The 2nd Big Day!
Mom woke me up to have dim sum with my grandmom and relatives. I thought Shyuan would be going too so I forced myself up and dragged myself there. Mana tau she overnighted her aunt's house and did not go for breakfast. *sigh* Should have stayed back for more sleep.
Went to my aunt's house for lunch (yeah, it was steamboat again) and gambled with my cousins. I lost the most among them but I remembered Shyuan earned some moneny. ISH...
My relatives from my mom's side reached my house from KL in the evening. Well you know, we had STEAMBOAT again for dinner at my house. LOL that is how everytime I get fat after CNY *sigh*
Took my cousins to Queensbay after dinner and we practically just shopped at Forever 21 until 10pm. Haha girls are forever girls... Alicia complained that she was hungry after shopping (I don't know how her food could be digested in such a short period) and wanted to go Gurney for supper. Ok, so I drove there and was lucky enough to find a parking space.
Wah I tell you, she could eat a lot. You know what the 4 of us ordered? 1 Mua Chee, 2 packets of Apom, 2 Sugar Cane drinks, 1 Honey Rojak and 2 plates of Fried Oyster. God.... they are seriously huge eaters =)
As usual, we went visiting to my mom's relatives along with my cousins, aunts and uncles. We celebrated my youngest cousin brother's birthday at my 'Sam Suk Gong's (mom's 3rd uncle) house. He turned 2 years old this year =) Ordered a whole Classic Cheese cake from Secret Recipe, 4 pizzas and KFC. The visiting ended in the evening. I was moodless, tired and was feeling freaking hot after that because of the weather.
In this family, there is a tradition whereby we, the younger generation will take turns to treat the whole family of 19 people (including my brother) a dinner during the 3rd night of CNY. My brother was the first one because he was 1st graduate and found a job. Year 2012 will be my turn because I will graduate in 2011 and will start working after that. Still a long time to go~!
After dinner, I drove my cousins to Batu Feringghi night market. They were seriously so excited about it because they love there. Well, everyone bought something but mostly are DVDs and CDs.
Gambled again that night and I lost the most again =(
cousins - me, joanne, jamie, alicia
29-01-2009 (Thursday)
Jamie, Joanne and their dad went back to KL because Jamie needed to work on Friday and Joanne had classes on Friday.
I spent the day with Alicia, my the other cousin. Picked up her friend who was from Melbourne, Sandy from the jetty and went shopping at Gurney. Before dropping her back, we went to take a stroll along the jetty point. Haha I realised that the view was quite fascinating though I always neglect that place and just drive pass.
2 leng lui's - Sandy and Alicia.
3 of us.
Fascinating view, isn't it?
Sunset.
Had dinner with Alicia and her Monash friend at Faces. Her friend happened to be my god brother's friend, whom I was introduced to when I went Mois. It is indeed such a small world!
30-01-2009 (Friday)
All my cousins, aunts and uncles went back in the morning. So once again I was left with my parents. Suddenly, my house became quiet again =)
Went visiting with my sisters starting from Chendy's and Jureen's house (they are sisters but not twins), following by Jhu's,Chian's, Kai's, Doreen's and finally mine. The visiting ended at about 8pm hehe.
After flying back to her house to wash up, Chendy came back my house to pick me and Doreen up and off we went to Gee How's house. As usual, there would be a gathering at his house during CNY. OOh... how I miss everyone over there especially those who came back from Perth and Melbourne. I always love this gathering =)
Gee How and I. He's flying back to Melbourne *sobsob*
Friends ever since Standard 1 and still remain as good friends.
Back row, from left: Wei Dee, Yung Ming
Front row, from left: Me, Fern
From left: Youngest daughter, 2nd daughter, eldest daugher, Mung papa
Group picture!
2 flying back to Melb and another 2 flying back to Perth *sobsob*
Kinda boring so for the very first time, mom and I went to watch movie together. Yea, the very first time! Love it!! Haha.. not love the movie but love it because I went movie with mum =)
Had my final round of dim sum before returning to KL. Haha that is what I always do on the Sunday before coming back here. I always miss dim sum in Penang!
Caught a movie with Fern, Vivi and Chris - Bride Wars. Met Daniel, Jun Chong and Pei I'ng at Borders. Quite happy to have caught up a bit with Daniel. We were once very good friends back in high school. The day ended with a dinner with my mom at Kim Gary. Finally, my 1st time dining in Kim Gary @ Queensbay. There is always a long queue outside it and I am always lazy to line up =)
Came back KL. Oh... I MISS PENANG!!!!
-sherril=xuele-
This post is basically about how I spent my CNY holiday. For the first time after so many years in UTAR I had such a long CNY break!! WOhoooO~!!
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22-01-2009 (Thursday)Reached Penang at night.
It was Vivi's birthday. Hoho.. she finally turned 21 years old. Yeah she wants to be FOREVER 21!!
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23-01-2009 (Friday)
Vivi's birthday party. She purposely delayed her party because me and Fern could only make it on this day. Well for the sake of her besties, she delayed it =) Overnighted at her house with fern, yee, mei na & wan ting.
Her cake - homemade cake. It is very DELICIOUS!!!
Vivi & her Chris - best couple of the year. I am so JEALOUS!! :P
Family picture. Papa and his 'kuai lui's =)
My 'son', whom I am very proud of =) Siao siao, his results in uni (dentistry) is only either Distiction or High Distinction! No need to hope anymore, his is attached haha.
p/s: Please ignore the height difference!
All the Peng Hwa girls!!! Peng Hwa = PCGHS = my high school
Fern and I helping Vivi to clean up. So good of us *self praise*
Our Ang Pows for her. These are her best prezzies because we gave her cash! Now she can spend them on her long-dreamt tattoo =)
Present from her lecturer. It is a pair of HANDMADE earrings that is why it is so expensive! Her lecturer made these earrings and sold them in a shop.
An extravagant prezzie from her college friend. OOhhh she loves it!
All her presents.
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24-01-2009 (Saturday)
Helped my parents with the preparation stuffs and went to buy those fishball thingy at "Goh Tiau Loh" (Road 5) market.
At night, we had a girls' night out at Mois. Well, Fern suggested it so we just tagged along. That was my 1st time in VIP wohoo!! Met Kevin, Uncle Benny and my god brother there..... After having supper at about 3.30am at McD, Fern and Yee overnighted at my house. We chilled and chatted for sometime before falling off asleep =)
Vivi is pretty, isn't she?
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Reunion dinner!
Haha this year is my family's turn to host for it. Met my relatives from my dad's side. Nice to see everybody again. Too bad my brother was not back for it =(
But something made me went to sleep happily. Hehe... after so long, this was the 1st time *HE* answered my phone and talked nicely to me. Oh god, I miss those sweet old times when we talked and talked over the phone......
Steamboat with the usual food.
My parents and I. Oh I miss my brother!!!
Look, my face and neck are so red! That is the result of drinking too much wine hehe =)-----------------------------------------------------------------------
26-01-2009 (Monday)
The BIG DAY!
Hehe... after dressing up, everyone went over to Shyuan's house to visit my beloved grandmom. Then everyone gathered at my house for steamboat breakfast. About 9.30am we set off to "bai nian". Well the same old routine every year. Got ang pows from the same people, snack a bit here and there and soon we went back our house for steamboat lunch again. Yeah, 3 meals of steamboat consecutively!!! LOL...
The food. I know my brother misses them :P
Isn't this packing CUTE???!! Kinda boring after lunch because well, something's missing in my life and I just could not act as if nothing happened. So, stayed in at home till night. Then me and mum started grumbling about what a boring day it was. Haha so for the 1st time, dad, mom and I went to somewhere just for a stroll. Kinda enjoyed that trip because I felt so home... I miss them now =(
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27-01-2009 (Tuesday)The 2nd Big Day!
Mom woke me up to have dim sum with my grandmom and relatives. I thought Shyuan would be going too so I forced myself up and dragged myself there. Mana tau she overnighted her aunt's house and did not go for breakfast. *sigh* Should have stayed back for more sleep.
Went to my aunt's house for lunch (yeah, it was steamboat again) and gambled with my cousins. I lost the most among them but I remembered Shyuan earned some moneny. ISH...
My relatives from my mom's side reached my house from KL in the evening. Well you know, we had STEAMBOAT again for dinner at my house. LOL that is how everytime I get fat after CNY *sigh*
Took my cousins to Queensbay after dinner and we practically just shopped at Forever 21 until 10pm. Haha girls are forever girls... Alicia complained that she was hungry after shopping (I don't know how her food could be digested in such a short period) and wanted to go Gurney for supper. Ok, so I drove there and was lucky enough to find a parking space.
Wah I tell you, she could eat a lot. You know what the 4 of us ordered? 1 Mua Chee, 2 packets of Apom, 2 Sugar Cane drinks, 1 Honey Rojak and 2 plates of Fried Oyster. God.... they are seriously huge eaters =)
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28-01-2009 (Wednesday)As usual, we went visiting to my mom's relatives along with my cousins, aunts and uncles. We celebrated my youngest cousin brother's birthday at my 'Sam Suk Gong's (mom's 3rd uncle) house. He turned 2 years old this year =) Ordered a whole Classic Cheese cake from Secret Recipe, 4 pizzas and KFC. The visiting ended in the evening. I was moodless, tired and was feeling freaking hot after that because of the weather.
In this family, there is a tradition whereby we, the younger generation will take turns to treat the whole family of 19 people (including my brother) a dinner during the 3rd night of CNY. My brother was the first one because he was 1st graduate and found a job. Year 2012 will be my turn because I will graduate in 2011 and will start working after that. Still a long time to go~!
After dinner, I drove my cousins to Batu Feringghi night market. They were seriously so excited about it because they love there. Well, everyone bought something but mostly are DVDs and CDs.
Gambled again that night and I lost the most again =(
cousins - me, joanne, jamie, alicia
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29-01-2009 (Thursday)
Jamie, Joanne and their dad went back to KL because Jamie needed to work on Friday and Joanne had classes on Friday.
I spent the day with Alicia, my the other cousin. Picked up her friend who was from Melbourne, Sandy from the jetty and went shopping at Gurney. Before dropping her back, we went to take a stroll along the jetty point. Haha I realised that the view was quite fascinating though I always neglect that place and just drive pass.
2 leng lui's - Sandy and Alicia.
3 of us.
Fascinating view, isn't it?
Sunset.
Had dinner with Alicia and her Monash friend at Faces. Her friend happened to be my god brother's friend, whom I was introduced to when I went Mois. It is indeed such a small world!
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30-01-2009 (Friday)
All my cousins, aunts and uncles went back in the morning. So once again I was left with my parents. Suddenly, my house became quiet again =)
Went visiting with my sisters starting from Chendy's and Jureen's house (they are sisters but not twins), following by Jhu's,Chian's, Kai's, Doreen's and finally mine. The visiting ended at about 8pm hehe.
After flying back to her house to wash up, Chendy came back my house to pick me and Doreen up and off we went to Gee How's house. As usual, there would be a gathering at his house during CNY. OOh... how I miss everyone over there especially those who came back from Perth and Melbourne. I always love this gathering =)
Gee How and I. He's flying back to Melbourne *sobsob*
Friends ever since Standard 1 and still remain as good friends. Back row, from left: Wei Dee, Yung Ming
Front row, from left: Me, Fern
From left: Youngest daughter, 2nd daughter, eldest daugher, Mung papa
Group picture!
2 flying back to Melb and another 2 flying back to Perth *sobsob*
That night we sisters went to Jessica's house to overnight.
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31-01-2009 (Saturday)Kinda boring so for the very first time, mom and I went to watch movie together. Yea, the very first time! Love it!! Haha.. not love the movie but love it because I went movie with mum =)
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01-02-2009 (Sunday)Had my final round of dim sum before returning to KL. Haha that is what I always do on the Sunday before coming back here. I always miss dim sum in Penang!
Caught a movie with Fern, Vivi and Chris - Bride Wars. Met Daniel, Jun Chong and Pei I'ng at Borders. Quite happy to have caught up a bit with Daniel. We were once very good friends back in high school. The day ended with a dinner with my mom at Kim Gary. Finally, my 1st time dining in Kim Gary @ Queensbay. There is always a long queue outside it and I am always lazy to line up =)
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02-02-2009 (Monday)Came back KL. Oh... I MISS PENANG!!!!
-sherril=xuele-
