The Last 3 Days of Y3S3

Fooh! Just back from "vocal training" session at Red Box, The Gardens. The last 3 days of my final semester of Year 3 were mainly spent with my 下乡 (xia xiang) friends. Let these 3 days be the celebrations for them for completing their thesis and my boost juice to study hard for finals =)

Wednesday night we went all the way up to Kampar campus, again. But this time we only spent around 2 and a half hours with our juniors. Then had yam cha session before proceeding to Yen Wen's house to overnight. Dear, thanks for sparing us a room to 'sampat' ya!

Yen Wen (right) - the one always being bullied by evil Keat

The journey back to Yen Wen's house at Tanjung Malim was scary. Keat's little green car was a bit naughty and nearly broke down on the highway around 1 something in the morning! Lol.. Keat, you should really go and have your car checked!! Uncle Chua very old already so he cannot be scared too much ^^

Uncle Chua who practically sleeps just anywhere!

That night gossiped with Voon Fei till we heard some "singing" from the mosque nearby. Sweat. Was already 6am and we were supposed to wake up at 7am. Thought of sleeping for an hour, but by the time I opened my eyes it was already 9am.... and my only tutorial class on Thursday was at 9am. Great. Missed another class.

Eventually everyone woke up and was busy helping Yew with his thesis. He was even more 'geng'. That morning before we departed around 11 something, he told us he actually had a presentation in the morning. He missed it. Wow.. really really 'pei fu'.

So happy because they finally completed their thesis ^^

Tried to study hard on Thursday but slept quite a lot as well since I did not have much sleep the night before. Haha this is so terrible as we planned to have vocal session today. Haih. Shall try my best not to waste anymore time after today. I am sure I can do it as I have started to feel the pressure.

Sigh. Time really flies. These friends are going to graduate soon.



They and my housemates remind me that soon it will be my turn to choose my FYP title and write thesis. *sob sob* I DO NOT WANT TO WRITE THESIS!!!!

Anyway, any suggestions about choosing FYP title or advisor?

All UTAR-ians, gambate!



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In Progress of Reviving

This blog has nearly gone dead huh? People have been urging me to update yet I was either not in mood for blogging or my time was extremely packed with heavy assignment workload. Anyway, it is the time for me to start reviving this blog, not going to see it dead. Aiks.

It is now week 14. Which means in less than 2 weeks I shall be sitting for my 1st paper in finals. Kinda scary actually because I do not seem to be well prepared for this semester. Gotta add more juice to my studies as I still have some plans to further my studies elsewhere. With lousy results it will never bring me to where I want to be.

Sherril Leow, time to speed up and strike for the best!

Caught up with my BFFs and friends lately. Seems like most of them are doing quite well. Vivi babe just came back from Macau trip. Now Fernie babe is going to step into real working world, finally you're an adult babe!!! =) Wish you all the best k?

Few friends found their new happiness and am very happy for them. But at the same time, it makes me think about a friend in Melbourne. I can truly understand how she felt throughout these months, but from her blog posts she seems to be progressing quite well. Given that she is a stronger and tougher girl compared to me, I am sure she will make through this period faster than I did.

Stay strong, girl! You still have your lovely and caring friends around the world mentally supporting you =) We know you can do it!


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A Friend

My last post was on 25th Feb, before Chinese New Year. Means, it has been weeks since the last post. Sorry people for the delay. I was busy preparing for UTAR Ball after CNY holidays. After UTAR Ball I was too busy relaxing myself like never before haha. Played PSP Lego Batman and got addicted. Then when I had the mood to blog, my house internet was down and is still down. So now I am sitting at Little Tree surfing the net, and to update my blog a bit.

I should blog about UTAR Ball first since it's a quite happening event and I am part of the committee, but I guess it is not the time for me to do so in Little Tree. I prefer privacy if I were to blog with photos haha.

So, I would like to talk about something else for this post.

Kuak went back his hometown yesterday. Then at night suddenly he texted me, telling me that 1 of his good friends is in hospital, suffering from nose and throat cancer. For a moment, I was speechless. I did not know what to say or what to do in order to console him. I never had a friend who had been in this condition but it sure reminded me about a friend of mine who passed away in a tragic car accident 3 and a half years ago. The feeling of losing a friend whom we know quite well is really unbearable.

According to him, his friend still have the will to live on but his nerves and cells are nearly all dead. Guess he should be prepared for the worst. Luckily Kuak decided to go back hometown and had the chance to visit him. Unlike me, I was too late to bid goodbye to my friend.

Life is always so unpredictable, isn't it?

Though I do not know his friend at all, but still I hope he can survive and wake up. If not, I hope the guy's family and friends will be strong enough to overcome this situation.

Cherish your family and friends when they are still with you. You will never know what will happen tomorrow, or even next second.

And always live your life to the fullest without regrets, because you will only live once.

Gambate, Kuak's friend! I hope you can make it through!



-sherril=xuele-

Cure for My Blue Mood

*Attn: This post is quite messy as my thoughts were kind of messy and mixed up when I wrote it. Nothing important in it so feel free to exit k.

When I am in my blue mood, I always like to be alone.

It should be very obvious whenever I am in this kind mood, as in I become really quiet, do not really smile a lot and I look quite expressionless. This is nothing like when I am in bad mood.

As for today, I woke up with this weird mood. Whatever I did nothing seemed to be great. In the end I chose to skip all the classes after Process Control and Instrumentation lecture because I know for sure I would not listen to the rest of the lectures.

Sometimes I wondered, how could I become so moodless when there were actually some interesting happenings around me yet they could not cheer me up even a bit?

What were the reasons that affected my mood?

Reasons.... reasons.... for today, I just could not find some proper reasons that could explain my change of mood.

And I hate this kind of feeling. Moodless without reason.

Blah whatever.

As I said, normally I would like to be left alone, letting myself to wander around my own world. But there were times like today I felt contented having someone special accompanying me through my bad day.

This is because:

1)I did not need to give reasons why I was down.

2)I could just frown whole day without being asked what was wrong with me.

3) I could be left to do whatever I like for the whole day, without burdening me with other matters.

In short, he could just be there to wipe my tears and listen to me saying, "I am not happy." yet I could not give him any reasons for saying that.

Most importantly, in the end of the day he was the one who could make me smile again and cheered me up.

Thank god I have this special someone, and I am indeed grateful for that =)

As for you all, have you all ever been into this kind of mood whereby you feel down without any reasons?


-sherril=xuele-

烦！

我开始不懂自己应该要怎样做。

当发生状况时，我应该改掉往常的习惯，然后保持沉默吗？？

还是依我往常的习惯开始辩驳，解释？

如果解释多，错就更多。我会被说我好胜。是吗？每次都这样吗？

如果保持沉默，我会觉得我好像没有维护我自己，没有替自己做个解释。。。

最近开始觉得，我说话开始要小心翼翼，不然一不留神，我又收到一颗计时炸弹。说话需要那么的小心，感觉好像没有什么意义了。 那是不是代表我应该保持沉默？

好烦，真的好烦。

很多时候我真的不懂自己得罪了他人什么，可是就是需要看他人脸色。一声不响就把我抛弃在后头，到底这是什么意思？

发生这些事情的时候，心里真的很痛！但是我一直高诉自己，我一定要变强！！不能再为这些有的没的哭了，所以我忍。

我只是希望， 我们各自可以了解各自多一点。。。

可以吗？


-雪乐-

PP = People, Problems

Finally here is a post in English. I do not know why but for the previous posts I just feel that I need to use Chinese to write. Crazy me. My apologies to those who cannot read in Chinese, but since it is my blog I will use any language according to my mood to write ^^

So my weekend was a happy, exhausting and painful one. Happy because Vivi babe came to KL and the 4 of us got to hang out together to shop, gossip and pillow talk. Exhausting because we spent whole Saturday shopping around the boutiques in Bangsar and whole Sunday shopping in Ikea and 1 Utama. Then why it was a painful one as well?

Because my wallet is bleeding furiously now. Sigh.

Thank god CNY is just around the corner if not.... I do not know how the hell I am going to survive for the rest of the month haha.




Well that is my weekend story. Now back to my topic, it seems that everyone around me is having their problems to worry about, including myself.

To see everyone in such situation especially when they are my friends, somehow it hurts me. Read 1 of their blogs and realized that beneath the laughter that I see everyday is actually sadness. Wish I can help them, but I know it is near to impossible as those problems only they themselves can solve. Just like mine, noone can help me except myself.

I have never regretted getting back to this relationship. After all, this was and this is what I wished for. But when problem arises, sometimes it is just quite frustrating. I wish I can solve it but I do not even know what happened. Tell me, what should I do? *sigh*

Hope to see everyone smile again after CNY holidays. I believe that we can go through whatever harsh situations we are in right now. Gambate people!!!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!


-sherril=xuele-

有感而发

当你是很有心参加一些活动，所面对的一切困境你都会是往好方面想，绝对明白发生这些困境的原因。

只有没有一颗热忱的心的人才会觉得，自己被整了。

如果现今我们对换角色，我相信你会明白我们的用意了，


到底那份想参加这次的活动的决心有多少，看了电邮我们都心里有数。

我只能说，机会给了你，要不要争取就看你们自己了。

我希望这一届我期待的真的值得我期待。

自信！要有自信！！


-雪乐-

近况

昨天和朋友去唱K，算是给自己一个放松的机会。

回来KL整两个星期，感觉好像一直在忙都没有机会让自己好好休息。开课的第二天我竟让已经翘课去忙我的东西。 其实也不能怪谁，是我自己做的选择。现在总算已完成手头上其中一个任务的70%。还有好多东西需要完成，这个学期真是需要好好的分配我的时间。

昨天我班的朋友问了我一些事情，才发现到原来大家还不知道我那篇9月10日的post到底在说明什么。也才发现到，原来我以为很明显的事情对他们来说根本 就不明显。大家，真的很抱歉，我不是故意想让你们蒙在鼓里，只是没想到你们真的不懂。之前烦了你们那么多希望你们不会怪我。看到现在的我，大家大可以放心 了吧！不管这样的情况可以持续多久，我还是ok的。这一次我绝对不会亏待自己。

还有，昨天我们终于坚持说英文了。我想我得慢慢习惯以英文与他们交谈。毕竟我的speaking skills很差劲，真的是时候多多练习，所谓practice makes perfect。所以如果听到我说很烂的英文，请不要以为我不会说还要炫耀，我只是在练习，所以绝对不可以嘲笑我。

Anyway,让你们看看我最近到底在忙些什么吧！

长话短说，这学期我参加四种活动，其中一项是我参与了我校社区服务团（下乡团）的协调团。而我这团是负责在kampar campus 成立第一届社区服务团，也就是说带新的一团去社区服务。责任重大，因为在那边从没办过这项活动，所以难免有点压力。希望这一团将可以很顺利的组成。



这些都是在我家客厅弄，每天都像个垃圾堆，从早忙到晚。。这样的生活差不多维持了5天。期间在msn问岳宏要不要过来帮忙，他的答复竟然是给了我一个解释吃素救地球的好处的link =_=



有那两个超神经的男生在，就少不了一些超无聊的动作。



然后在开学前的星期五带着我们的完成品到金宝拉曼大学做宣传。



那一天将会是我们毕生难忘的一段旅途，因为差一点就必须住宿街头。幸好遇到了一位超好心的教授，带我们去买火车票，又带我们去吃晚餐。所以说嘛，槟城人都是好心人哈哈因为他也是槟城人=）



因为一些程序上的问题，所以开学后的星期二又得回金宝继续宣传工作。大功告成后我们两个黄金拍档终于可以卸下70%肩上所背负的责任。十分感谢大家的帮忙，没有你们真不懂要怎么死。所以岳宏，没有你就没有今天的摩天轮哦！哈哈你可算是帮上很大的忙啦！



忙了这个，也该是花更多时间在UTARBall的筹备。真是过意不去没什么帮到我的Ah Head..所以我一定要加油，也要帮帮我家的画家画backdrop。手头上的face recognition system project也需赶快多了解多找资料。。。到了Y3S3我真的开始觉得我在工程系这行真的不行。唉，怎么办？？

过了这个学期，我想大学生活会变得比较乏味吧！除了我的coursemates还有其他和我一起毕业的朋友，其他人都毕业了。所以，这个学期要好好把握在一起的时间！


-雪乐-

好怪的心情

我开始觉得自己很有问题了。

这个已是我第三次更改这个post。写了，改了，再写，再删除，再重写。。。。才发现，原来我表达能力真的很差，所以需要更改。

老实说今天是很开心的，因为碰见了那三八婆ah yee和hs，聊了很多事情，笑得差一点关不了嘴巴。有这样的朋友真的很不错，怪不得是死党，因为是同类。

但是不懂为何，当我戴上耳机，听着电脑播的歌时，心情却随跟着歌曲而改。我记得，我曾经告诉一个朋友说，当我心情低落时，什么歌对我来说都是感伤的。当我心情好时，不管是悲哀的歌或快乐的歌，对我而言都没差，都是一样很开心的歌。

但是今晚开始我要推翻我的说法了。原来，我也可以那么入歌，就像我很入戏一样，竟然在看Avatar时流泪了，而且是看两次，流两次。大概10个看Avatar的人里，只有我一个那么奇怪的人吧！

原本很开心的心情，听了这首歌，心情好像低落了。脑里浮现很多回忆，很多追不回的时光。有很多想说的话，但是又觉得保持沉默是最好的，所以唯有在心里呐喊。我相信，好人是有好报的。你是好人，所以一定会幸福。

不想写了，因为开始头痛，肚子又拉着。。。还是听歌睡觉最好！




-雪乐-

Final Post for Year 2009

My god! I could not believe that this shall be the last post for year 2009~~

Why must time pass so fast??

I spent nearly 9 months in sorrow and that was how I wasted my time. But eventually I survived and learned a very expensive lesson. Things got better and besides my emo matters, the things that I could remember were numerous trips that I went during semester break. outings with coursemates, working life in ACT and moments that I hang out with my great colleagues.

During my 1st and 2nd week in training, time crawled in snail pace. Then suddenly *boom* I was already in the 10th week of training, then 11th week, 12th week and finally today, which happened to be last day.

Besides working and learning new stuffs, there were so many crazy moments with my colleagues. Memories oh memories..... today one even said I would cry. LOL because I teared while watching Avatar does not mean I would cry when I leave you people la ^^

So overall, how was my year 2009?

It all started in an extreme misery state and got no better after half a year. Yet God heard me and I was eventually given a chance to start all over again. Then things got better and better and I must say it ends at a very memorable state.

People, how has your year been? What are your new year resolutions?

Slim down?

Grow taller?

Become fairer?

Haha sounds more like my resolutions huh?? *grinning*

Anyway, no matter it has been good or bad, believe that year 2010 will be better! Leave everything bad behind and start over! At least that is what I am going to do.

Happy New Year everyone! May year 2010 be a great year for everyone of you!


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