Cure for My Blue Mood

*Attn: This post is quite messy as my thoughts were kind of messy and mixed up when I wrote it. Nothing important in it so feel free to exit k.

When I am in my blue mood, I always like to be alone.

It should be very obvious whenever I am in this kind mood, as in I become really quiet, do not really smile a lot and I look quite expressionless. This is nothing like when I am in bad mood.

As for today, I woke up with this weird mood. Whatever I did nothing seemed to be great. In the end I chose to skip all the classes after Process Control and Instrumentation lecture because I know for sure I would not listen to the rest of the lectures.

Sometimes I wondered, how could I become so moodless when there were actually some interesting happenings around me yet they could not cheer me up even a bit?

What were the reasons that affected my mood?

Reasons.... reasons.... for today, I just could not find some proper reasons that could explain my change of mood.

And I hate this kind of feeling. Moodless without reason.

Blah whatever.

As I said, normally I would like to be left alone, letting myself to wander around my own world. But there were times like today I felt contented having someone special accompanying me through my bad day.

This is because:

1)I did not need to give reasons why I was down.

2)I could just frown whole day without being asked what was wrong with me.

3) I could be left to do whatever I like for the whole day, without burdening me with other matters.

In short, he could just be there to wipe my tears and listen to me saying, "I am not happy." yet I could not give him any reasons for saying that.

Most importantly, in the end of the day he was the one who could make me smile again and cheered me up.

Thank god I have this special someone, and I am indeed grateful for that =)

As for you all, have you all ever been into this kind of mood whereby you feel down without any reasons?


-sherril=xuele-

烦！

我开始不懂自己应该要怎样做。

当发生状况时，我应该改掉往常的习惯，然后保持沉默吗？？

还是依我往常的习惯开始辩驳，解释？

如果解释多，错就更多。我会被说我好胜。是吗？每次都这样吗？

如果保持沉默，我会觉得我好像没有维护我自己，没有替自己做个解释。。。

最近开始觉得，我说话开始要小心翼翼，不然一不留神，我又收到一颗计时炸弹。说话需要那么的小心，感觉好像没有什么意义了。 那是不是代表我应该保持沉默？

好烦，真的好烦。

很多时候我真的不懂自己得罪了他人什么，可是就是需要看他人脸色。一声不响就把我抛弃在后头，到底这是什么意思？

发生这些事情的时候，心里真的很痛！但是我一直高诉自己，我一定要变强！！不能再为这些有的没的哭了，所以我忍。

我只是希望， 我们各自可以了解各自多一点。。。

可以吗？


-雪乐-

PP = People, Problems

Finally here is a post in English. I do not know why but for the previous posts I just feel that I need to use Chinese to write. Crazy me. My apologies to those who cannot read in Chinese, but since it is my blog I will use any language according to my mood to write ^^

So my weekend was a happy, exhausting and painful one. Happy because Vivi babe came to KL and the 4 of us got to hang out together to shop, gossip and pillow talk. Exhausting because we spent whole Saturday shopping around the boutiques in Bangsar and whole Sunday shopping in Ikea and 1 Utama. Then why it was a painful one as well?

Because my wallet is bleeding furiously now. Sigh.

Thank god CNY is just around the corner if not.... I do not know how the hell I am going to survive for the rest of the month haha.




Well that is my weekend story. Now back to my topic, it seems that everyone around me is having their problems to worry about, including myself.

To see everyone in such situation especially when they are my friends, somehow it hurts me. Read 1 of their blogs and realized that beneath the laughter that I see everyday is actually sadness. Wish I can help them, but I know it is near to impossible as those problems only they themselves can solve. Just like mine, noone can help me except myself.

I have never regretted getting back to this relationship. After all, this was and this is what I wished for. But when problem arises, sometimes it is just quite frustrating. I wish I can solve it but I do not even know what happened. Tell me, what should I do? *sigh*

Hope to see everyone smile again after CNY holidays. I believe that we can go through whatever harsh situations we are in right now. Gambate people!!!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!


-sherril=xuele-

有感而发

当你是很有心参加一些活动，所面对的一切困境你都会是往好方面想，绝对明白发生这些困境的原因。

只有没有一颗热忱的心的人才会觉得，自己被整了。

如果现今我们对换角色，我相信你会明白我们的用意了，


到底那份想参加这次的活动的决心有多少，看了电邮我们都心里有数。

我只能说，机会给了你，要不要争取就看你们自己了。

我希望这一届我期待的真的值得我期待。

自信！要有自信！！


-雪乐-