Wake up call

Finally, it is time for me to move on. There are so many sweet memories that I must leave behind. It is a sad case that things should be ended, just like this.

It was me who created this mess which landed me in this shitty state. Never been so serious about a relationship, never. Yet, this is the end already. I am seriously so blank right now. I do not know what to do, what to think, how to move on.......

FRIEND is such a strange word to use for you, because I have never thought you as a friend. Seems like now I have to learn how to be friends with you *sweat smile* Never mind, I have confidence in myself and I know I will be good at it =)

Feelings can just simply go off huh? Is it true? Maybe yes, maybe no. I do not want to know yes or not. Just let time prove the truth to us. But I am most glad that at least we are still friends, not ending up like a bulk of shit and avoiding each other. That would be such a cruel thing to face, wouldn't it?

Now it is REALLY a new start for me. I realize that I still have so many things to learn in my life, and for the past 12 days, I have learnt so much things, understood so many reasons....... and I hope 1 day I can prove it to YOU haha.

Alright, enough of this sad stuff. It was so unlike me for the past few weeks, but well, maybe that was just another side of me, a side that even he has not noticed before. I hope that this year, everything will be fine. I really do not wish to face any stupid saddening things. I just cannot handle anything of this sort anymore......

Uni started today and it was like just HALF an HOUR class (which should be 2 hrs). Well, predictable anyway because it was the first lecture so most of the time the lecturer will just crap about some basic information and let the students off. This semester will be quite hectic, 5 subjects and even have a stupid Saturday class until 2pm. We, Mechatronics students will forever be the victims of Saturday classes...... forever... ever since the 1st semester. God damn it!!!!

Life still goes on Sherril.... be tough!!

-sherril-xuele-