Going crazy soon...

GOD DAMN IT!!! LOL... who should I blame for my failure in Maths? Of course it's none other than MYSELF~! No time to regret anymore... just I don't understand why the questions were not difficult yet I couldn't answer. WHY?!! Lack of practices I guess though I understand each and every formulae. And some more I have Maths phobia. That's true and I had this damn phobia since I failed my 1st add maths paper in F4. I'm seriously terrible in maths. Gotta study harder... DAMN. I've failed Maths coursework mark that's why I'm so worried. Kelvin... we're gonna die in this war together haha... well, let's just study for Circuit Theory now and forget bout this damn whole thing.

I felt bad when I called my mum right after I came out from the exam hall. Normally parents will scold their children for doing bad in exams but my parents are the opposite. From young, they have never given me any pressure in studies. I swear, NEVER. All this while it was ME who gave myself pressure to do things to the most perfect point. It was me who gave myself damn a lot of pressure when it comes to exams. I'm a perfectionist, perhaps haha.

Over the phone she was consoling me, "Why give yourself pressure? No need to cry la.. no more scholarship never mind. You have done your best...." I cried even harder haha because I felt guiltier for not excelling more. Haha I'm a crybaby huh?? I know they don't mind I don't do well in exams but I do mind because I know they have high hopes on me. Maybe because I did ok way back in primary and high shool. Anyway that's history. University is another different story and cannot be compared to those days.

I'm not whining here, just felt that I've paid damn a lot to learn this painful lesson. Seems that dealing with 4 subjects is even harder than dealing with 6 subjects (that was last sem) How come? *wondering* Monday will be the 3rd paper - Circuit Theory. I seriously hope that I can do well in this paper because coursework marks has helped me a lot and I want to take revenge for doing so badly in last semester's Basic Electronics. Those who sat for the paper last semester will know why that paper was hard. Hard in the sense that.. there were lots of stupid theories which we ignore most of the time haha. So advice for all of you, don't ever think that theories are not important for subjects that deal with calculations. Who knows, theories might take up 20 - 30% of 100%.

Anyway wanted to share this fantastic song with you all very long time ago. As you can see in my blog, or for those who are using Firefox Beta Version / IE browser you will know that I'm addicted to this song - Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis. She's a British singer with an amazingly powerful voice and she's hot. I love her songs.. especially this one. She was invited to American Idol 7 to perform this song. And heaven, she was awesome~!! Wahaha.. Baby Ong and I always like to "keep keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding..." away. We're addicted~!!

Below is the video clip which she performed in American Idol 7:



The UK version of Bleeding Love:



The US version of Bleeding Love:



Well some of you might say, "Very good meh?" Haha different people have different point of views so I don't mind. Since I think she's great so I just want to share with you people. =) So which version do you prefer?

Alright till here.. wanna start to revise my circuit d. Add oil everyone~!!!

p/s: Please don't laugh at me when I say "I cried". Just drop tears coz too sad.. emotions are sometimes uncontrollable..

-sherril-xuele-