A Special Call

Slightly before I went uni for exam, I received an unexpected call. A call that made me bewildered a moment. Guess it reminded me that no matter how old you are, in your parents' eyes, you will always be their little kid whom they will always worry and fuss about.

Because in my parents' eyes (especially my mum, serious!), I will always be the small, little girl in the house. You know till today, sometimes in my parents' conversations I can still hear them calling me "that small girl". Haha... I do not mind, since I am indeed the youngest in the family.

Anyway regarding the call, eventhough it was not from my parents, it reminded me about my own parents' concerns about me and my brother. Sometimes we may think that our parents do not understand us, but is it always that way?

Maybe at times they really do not understand due to generation gap (at least my mom is the most open-minded among her sisters, thank god!), but their constant naggings, advices are for our own good. After all, they are just worried and concern about us. That is why I have been trying hard to change my temper over these years.

Over the phone, I could sense sadness and worries in her voice. Somehow it ached my heart when I talked to her. Maybe because I could understand how she felt as we are concerned about the same person. Or maybe because it reflected to me how my parents felt all this while when I lost my temper unintentionally or when I faced some difficulties.

I hope I can change to be a better person, and I am really trying hard to achieve that. My 21st birthday wish? Ah, that would be sufficient enough.

2 more papers to go and I am done with finals. For now, I need some sleep to forget everything about today's paper. Because tonight I shall need space to memorize new stuffs for tomorrow's paper - Engineer in Society.

Wondering what is the subject all about? Nah, just forget about it because I am sure NONE of you will be interested in this subject. Really.



-sherril=xuele-

A Post for You, Babe =)

Attention: This is merely a post for a special friend of mine. Do not care to read it if you do not want to since it is quite a lengthy one.

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So, finally I have finished writing a post for you =)

I was actually halfway through the first one, but somehow when I got back later to finish it up, I just feel I need to write another 1. Haha you know, my mood when I was writing just now and now is totally different. Do not misunderstand, I am not moody or what and also not because of you. Maybe, it is because of the exam stress or some other things.

I have been pondering Vivian Tan, how on earth can I get along well with you?

Needless to say, we know that your remarks and comments are nearly always hurtful. Yet deep down in our hearts we know that you are nearly always right. You have been pouring cold water onto me all this while. Haha did you realise that among you 3, I have never called you before and cry about my problems? I just realized that ^^

I guess it is because I have this habit of choosing the less hurtful advice to listen to. I did not want to be hurt even more. People have been telling me, you should go and let Vivi "slap you hard on your face" so that you can wake up. Haha, yeah I know but I chose not to because I was avoiding the reality.

To be frank, there were times I was mad at you, but the madness just lasted for a few minutes. Should I say you are the most rational and more to reality person among us? Or Yee? Haha... Fernie is definitely out of the list, she is too naive =) Sometimes I admire you secretly (because if I "guang ming zheng da" admire you will "boi kiao") because you can always be so daring and rational. Unlike me, always so useless.

Maybe what you told Fernie about the latest "news" was correct after all. Fernie told me last night when I called her. (Fernie, sorry k for bugging you, again) Vivi, actually I have thought of that before too. Maybe I am just stubborn. Wah, finally, I admit I am a stubborn girl. LOL.

But with you 3 around and the other sisters as well, I know I still have you all eventhough I am left with nothing else. The darkest days are over and I have really recovered. Really, I would like to apologize to you and the rest for my bad attitude and letting you all down again and again. I knew from the start 1 day when I look back I will feel that I was silly, but I was too lost that time. True enough, looking back now made me laugh my ass out of myself. I have wasted my past half year doing useless things.

I am not saying the things in the paragraph above because of the fantasy happened. Nope, not at all. Whether it happened or not, I will still be saying. Though your mouth is really really really toxic, I must admit you have your point clearly stated. Just, the way for you to show concern for your friends is a bit... harsh. Haha..

I know you will say, "Sure la, I am Vivian Tan and I am like this. Must be "tok" enough to let you all "wake up"."

Haha "dai ke jeh", maybe you should just be a little bit more gentle? But I guess, that will be weird lo if 1 day you become like this.

Oh tell you 1 more thing to let you feel happy. That day when I hang out with Fernie and the rest, she mentioned about you always asking her about how am I? Haha siao cha bor, why didn't you ask me yourself? I did not tell Fernie when she told me, but actually I was secretly touched. TOUCHED. Babe... I was touched because of you. Wanna cry liao haha. Sorry that I made you worry about me all the way from Penang k? (or you weren't?) I actually thought you already "mou ngan tai" me since I myself already "mou ngan tai" myself.

Sigh.

Anyway, ask Fernie to fill you and Yee in with the details about my call to her last night ya. I am lazy to tell again. But please... DO IT PRIVATELY in your msn. Do not spam my chatterbox with these things.... hehe

So, the question - How on earth can I get along well with you?

People who do not know you will surely hate you to the max for your "chao chui" habit. Guess because we are BFFs that is why we know that deep down in your heart, you are just concern about us. Thanks babe, I really appreciate everything though I might hate you sometimes hahaha.

That is all that I wanna say. Love you, babe ^^ I mean it =)


p/s: Eh, the other 2 of you, don't be jealous k since this post is not for you all. Haha, one day if I have the sudden urge to write, I will. Miss you all!!

pp/s: I have disabled the comment section for this entry. Get back to me when you're online k?



-sherril=xuele-

Heart Attack~!

Yeah those who played the game called "Heart Attack" last night all got heart attack~! Haha, those who were being hit and those who got to hit the others all went back home with reddish / blue blackish palms and hands.

It was an awesome night, celebrating 2 coursemates' birthdays at Little Tree.



They are Cho Giap and Tze Yu. Though it was nothing luxurious, it was the quality time that all of us spent together that I treasure a lot.

Cho Giap with the cake

There were 23 of us (some did not attend though) and sat around 9 tables. Seldom we had gathering of this sort as it is quite hard to gather everyone who are from different gangs. The last time should be 20 of us flooded the cinema just to watch Transformers. So it was nice having fun with the rest sometimes ^^

We played games like it was the last day of finals. But the actual fact was, we just finished with the 2nd paper, 4 more to go. But I guess last night was a break for everyone, before starting the tiring journey to Friday's paper - Entrepreneurship.

Argh, people tell me, how to memorize 15 chapters of Entrepreneurship in 3 days?! This is sooo crazy.... even crazier when Engineering students are required to take this subject. Sigh.

Worries about other things should be put aside first. I need full concentration to get everything about Entre into my brains and digest everything well.

All the best to everyone who's taking this subject. I know WE CAN DO IT!!!

*but still doubtful about myself*



-sherril=xuele-

10th of Septemter 2009

OMG OMG OMG!!!

Hahaha, I think I am going to be crazy soon. I have been smiling since the moment I woke up. Everything becomes so beautiful to me. Argh, so this is how people will feel huh when their wish/dream comes true.

So regarding my previous post, yeah my dream turns out to be NOT a dream after all. I am not going to tell yet what the hell is happening to me as I still want to double confirm that my dream has actually come true and not just stopping right there the next moment. LOL

I did not expect it to happen and could not even see it coming. Everything just came in 1 shot and there I was still quite stunned.

Till now, I still feel like I am dreaming.

*slap myself to wake up*

Maybe being in a fantasy for a while is not that bad after all. Let us see if this fantasy will last any longer. *praying hard*

10th of September 2009.

What a fateful day for me. I shall never forget how much joy this day has brought to me...


-sherril=xuele-

How will you react to impossible-turns-possible situation?

When something that you think is most likely impossible to happen actually happened, how will you react?


A. Happy until the extent that you are going crazy.
B. Stunned and speechless.
C. Normal. Since people like to say "nothing is impossible".
D. Choose not to believe and ignore.
E. Uncertain.


For me, my answer is E. I am not sure how should I react.

The actual fact is, something out of my expectation really happened. Like happened right in front of my eyes. Everything was too real, too fantasy. Until now, I still cannot believe that it actually happened and is still happening.

Am I dreaming? Please slap me as hard as you can if this is merely a dream.

I really have no idea how long will this fantasy go on.

Perhaps something went wrong and this is happening? Is it just a mistake?

Part of me wants it to be real, but part of me wants me to wake up and face the story behind it.

Or there is actually NO story behind? *shrugs shoulders*

Whatever it is, I have decided not to think too much. Right now, exam is the most important thing to me. I do not want to screw up my papers again if possible.

Currently my progress of revision is not too ideal. Have to buck up even more to get back to my usual level of readiness.

Ah and 1 more thing, I realized I am starting to handle things in a very cool and calm way after chatting with my cousins. Seeing how they are reacting right now is like looking back at myself when I was still in the emo phase. Suddenly I felt that, eh I have actually felt so much better than I thought.

Weird enough, 3 of us actually 'sat luin' together, all because of the same reason - "fan jin". Haha no wonder we are called cousins, wtf.

Alright, all the best to all UTARians for the upcoming finals. Let us face the battle bravely together!



-sherril=xuele-

Congratulations!

Wah flowers for me!!! I am dating again!!!! Muahaha. Faster congratulate me!!!

LOL.

If you know me well you should know they are not for me la.

Haha I was just kidding. I am not a flower person so how on earth can the flowers be for me? LOL even my ex did not give any flowers to me as I prefer some other more realistic things haha.

So who are the flowers for???



They are for her - my beloved pretty cousin!

CONGRATZ Alicia!! Finally you have graduated from Monash University. Haha actually she finished her studies last year end and had started working ever since early this year. Just that her convocation was late.

View from Sunway Hotel.

Her convocation was held in Sunway Hotel last Saturday. I was honoured enough to be invited to enter the hall together with her parents as well as another cousin of mine to witness her receiving her certificate. (is that called certificate?)

The ballroom (or hall) for the ceremony.

The very last time I attended a convocation ceremony was like 5 years back when my brother graduated in Queensland University of Technology. That ceremony was obviously grand and it was held in their very own hall. Sigh. You know, the campus is like super duper big, compared to my uni now. (haha I know I should not compare)

Besides that, I also went for friends' convocations but of course, not joining the ceremonies but just to snap pictures and congratulate them. Theirs all are held in HOTELS and seem to be very grand very nice.

Sigh. I know I will not share the same fate as them. Haha. I cannot compare to them anyway with the fees I am paying now, right? As long as I get to graduate with my target of achievements, I guess it will be more than enough for me XD

The 3 cousins - Me, Alicia and Joanne.

Can't wait for my turn to wear the robe and the mortar-board. Haha that will be slightly after I finish my degree in May 2011, with no accidents happen in between of course.

Ah, then what will I do after that? *thinking hard*

I do not know for sure.

Most probably I will continue to study, haha provided that I get a scholarship. If not, I will just have to dismiss this idea and start working day and night.

Anyway seeing more and more people graduating, I realize that after next May, many of my friends are leaving uni already. Those friends taking 3-year courses like Bio and Chemistry will graduate in next May. That time my house will be empty, leaving me and Shyuan alone to the whole house.

Then those friends who are senior than me will finish their engineering courses too in next May. Those in FAS will also graduate. Sigh. Everything will be so different then. No more hanging out with those crazy fellas, no more gatherings with those 38 people, no more trips with those adventurous people.... Will life be duller?

And the thought of having to attend so many people's convo really tires me out haha.


-sherril=xuele-

RC Car Race

So today is finally the BIG DAY for all those who are taking Control Systems this semester.

We had RC Car Race today. It was our assignment to build a RC Car. The 1 to win the race will get bonus marks for the assignment.

The track for the cars to run.

Well needless to say, my group started late again. Muahaha. And in the end, my group did not compete in the race.

Miss Chan asked,"Why cannot run?"

Our answer was,"There are problems with our control."

Yea, indeed we had problems with our control. The whole system just did not function as it should be. Sometimes it could function but sometimes it could not. Guess the reason was because our circuits were all done on breadboards. We DID NOT solder them and the connections must be loose.

NOT because we wanted to save money or what, it was because we were not sure if our connections were correct or not. So in the end, using breadboard was easier to correct our error.

Anyway throughout this assignment I learned a lot especially in assembly programming and electronics part. Quite fun at the beginning but got frustrated in the end haha.




Some random pictures taken while waiting for the lecturer to evaluate our prototype:

Everyone in my course wore this green class T.

Having some illegal discussion I suppose? Haha

Tadaa!! The 4 shortest people in MH!! We're all of different ages.
(excluding the most right hand guy)

Me and Shyuan did not sleep for the entire night. Coursemates from C-20-10 came over too to discuss about the servo programming part.

The c-20-10 representatives.

My living room was like a mini workshop, packed with wires, cutters, laptops etc.




Well, initially everyone was damn hardworking, working on own tasks.





Then around 6 something in the morning, the guys all "tou ta" haha. Everyone was too exhausted to think properly.



Supposingly the race should start at 12pm behind SE block. But around 11.30am we were still trying out the damn servo program to control our spoiler.

Notice the time?

In the end of course we reached late. But oh well, leave that aside now. Show you some RC Car models:

C-20-10's RC Car model - 2nd prize 4th prize!

Hummer group - 3rd prize! (really pro)

Mak ko's RC Car model





Heard that they are going to use this car to compete in some competition.

Well before I end this post, I have something to say...

I am very happy!

Yes, I am! Eventhough I did not sleep for the whole night, eventhough there are still assignments left, I am still happy.

Why?

Haha.. no reasons maybe? Just, H-A-P-P-Y :)

Well, need to go and take a rest first. Tomorrow need to hand up Micro-p assignment!!


-sherril=xuele-

I don't know

Sometimes, you just do not how to react to people's remarks.


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I wish I can talk to you in a very friendly way, like how friends should talk.

But I guess this is almost impossible for us.

Why? Why everytime we must sound like we are arguing over some unimportant stuffs?

Why must you just talk to me in that particular way?

Frankly, I feel very annoyed.

I wonder, when will this shit end?
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I am not sure about you guys, but I really hate it when I tell people this:

"I think I did badly." *moody*
"I think I will fail it. How?" *eyes with tears*


Then they give me this reply:

"Aiya you say only la. Listen 1st. Your results sure better than mine."


Sigh. Totally speechless.


I do not simply tell people that if I do not feel so. Maybe you all might think I exaggerated, but seriously most of the times I was quite positive that I screwed up the papers. I totally have no confidence in myself because I know I am not Shyuan.

When results came out and turned out to be better than I thought, you all said I was pretending.

=_=''


People, how am I going to know it would turn out like this?

I guess next time the best thing I should do is to remain silent after exam. Happy or not, I just keep it to myself.

I know myself too well. I cannot maintain my grades because I am not a pro. I am just a normal student who always procrastinate yet try her best in her exams. Who will not I wonder? No one likes to fail, isn't it?

Sometimes, you really just do not know how to react to such comments.



-sherril=xuele-

The world is very big

This phrase is true after all :)

There are still so many things that I have yet to experience,


like sky diving and water rafting.



So many people that I just started to know or whom I may know in the future, food that I yearn to try and places that I wish to travel to and the list goes on....

I want to go surfing at Waikiki Beach in Hawaii,


and scuba diving at Sabah.


I know I said I am going to hate my 21st year old birthday and this has been a dreadful year for me. But to think on the positive side, I should take those problems of mine as challenges for me to learn my lessons and grow up to think and act like a 21-year old girl. No more childish stuffs and actions.

Somebody said he wanted to read emo blog. Haha I think sooner or later he will need to cross my blog out from the emo category. This blog was never meant to be a emo blog, because it did not started out this way. But since the emo period is going to end soon, the level of emo-ness of this blog will be decreased.

Dom Dom, if you happen to read my blog no worries. Xue Le will always be Xue Le who is always full of snow happiness. You all gave me this nickname is because I used to be a happy girl isn't it?

I am glad I met many wonderful people around me, some are those whom I was not aware of at the very beginning. They have indeed brightened up my days. To those that I have made you guys disappointed, I am sorry about that. There just had to be times like that until you finally find a way back. So, please forgive me =)

Lastly, I would like wish my best buddy whom I have known for 12 years - Ying Chian a very Happy 21st Birthday!! Another friend turning 21. Haha I am considered young!!!



Sorry, I have not uploaded my latest picture with you. But oh well, this picture reminds me about my long hair days...

Darling, I really hope you have a great birthday this year. You are always a great friend to me and I am very glad that until today, we still remain as best friends. *Mwah* love you lots!!



-sherril=xuele-

The urge did not persist

That is why I am back here, with a new layout. LOL

Well, maybe if I really stop blogging it does not make any difference to you all since I am not those top bloggers and I personally feel that my blog is very dull. But, like what KLCK said was true.

Reading back my posts, I am glad that I blogged. Not only sweet memories were jotted down in words and pictures, some posts reminded me who I used to be and what I should not do in the future to prevent history from happening.

Anyway, this new layout is still under construction as there are still some codings that need to be edited. The tabs are not functioning as they should. Wonder what was wrong with my coding. Sigh. I have returned the things that I have learnt in Web Page Design during Foundation.

Currently, I am busy with assignments and tomorrow will be having my last midterm test - Engineer in Society. So, I guess I will get back to my editing after I am done with those. Supposingly, I should be joining Famine 30 this weekend. But due to the incomplete workload, Shyuan and I did not go. I hope that my friends who are the organizers are not mad with our sudden withdrawal. Sorry!



This is what I did. Studying while chatting in MSN. That is why I screwed up my Saturday's midterm. *crying hard* I am so 'dai sei'.

This is the circuit board before soldering started....

That's me, soldering the components.

I am starting to hate my hair colour. Should I dye again? Suggestions please!!!

Oh yeah by the way, it is getting longer day by day. Can't wait for it to be long long again!!!

Tadaa!!!! The completed circuit board (PIC is missing)

Haha, I was commented as being clumsy while soldering. Not only a few helai of my hair was burnt (because I looked too near), even my lappie was hurt. Sweat. Now there are scars on my new laptop.

Ok, so done with my update. Lastly I would like to wish Ruth, Shyuan and Li Pei

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!!


-sherril=xuele-