Wake up call

Finally, it is time for me to move on. There are so many sweet memories that I must leave behind. It is a sad case that things should be ended, just like this.

It was me who created this mess which landed me in this shitty state. Never been so serious about a relationship, never. Yet, this is the end already. I am seriously so blank right now. I do not know what to do, what to think, how to move on.......

FRIEND is such a strange word to use for you, because I have never thought you as a friend. Seems like now I have to learn how to be friends with you *sweat smile* Never mind, I have confidence in myself and I know I will be good at it =)

Feelings can just simply go off huh? Is it true? Maybe yes, maybe no. I do not want to know yes or not. Just let time prove the truth to us. But I am most glad that at least we are still friends, not ending up like a bulk of shit and avoiding each other. That would be such a cruel thing to face, wouldn't it?

Now it is REALLY a new start for me. I realize that I still have so many things to learn in my life, and for the past 12 days, I have learnt so much things, understood so many reasons....... and I hope 1 day I can prove it to YOU haha.

Alright, enough of this sad stuff. It was so unlike me for the past few weeks, but well, maybe that was just another side of me, a side that even he has not noticed before. I hope that this year, everything will be fine. I really do not wish to face any stupid saddening things. I just cannot handle anything of this sort anymore......

Uni started today and it was like just HALF an HOUR class (which should be 2 hrs). Well, predictable anyway because it was the first lecture so most of the time the lecturer will just crap about some basic information and let the students off. This semester will be quite hectic, 5 subjects and even have a stupid Saturday class until 2pm. We, Mechatronics students will forever be the victims of Saturday classes...... forever... ever since the 1st semester. God damn it!!!!

Life still goes on Sherril.... be tough!!

-sherril-xuele-

Goodbye year 2008!

This will be the final post for this year. After that it will be a brand new year for me!

I sort of thinking to blog something random, just for the sake of posting something final here haha.

I experienced so many FIRST times and to think back, I really love them =)

This year was the 1st time I attended Jay Chou's concert in Stadium Merdeka. It was like a dream come true! I was so thrilled, so touched and I nearly cried when I saw him coming out from stage, because I yearned to see him since form 1 and this year was the very 1st time I saw him live in person!!!! He was awesome and his concert was superb! OMG! I wanna see him live again!

Me with the precious ticket

Then I also went to The Click Five's concert in Genting. Though not many people went but their concert certainly rocks! My very first visit to a live English concert =) They were great!

The Click Five

I heart their concert =)

Other first times are like learnt to play guitar, dined in Chilli's and TGI Fridays, attended a reality show "So You Think You Can Dance" and involving myself in Festival and Orientation programs like Welcome Freshmen Concert and Ice Breaking.

"So You Think You Can Dance"

Besides, I have went to many places under Traveler's Den. First was FRIM, followed by Gua Tempurung, Pulau Redang, Pulau Perhentian & Lang Tengah, Taman Negara, National Bird Park and visited Malaysia International Fireworks Competition (MIFC) for the 2nd time in Putrajaya.

View from Marine Park

I LOVE snorkeling!!

Yohoooo!!!

We met a couple from Paris

In Kampar campus, after trip to Gua Tempurung

Famous "Min Bao Kai" (cantonese) in Kampar

Taman Negara trip

Watermelon eating competition during Taman Negara trip

FRIM trip

WoW!! I'm so high up in the sky!!!

With Penguins in National Zoo

As for Community Service Society (CSS), I joined a trip to SPCA and gosh those lil animals were so cute. Wish I could own one of them =)

This is my 1st time meeting Kelvin =)

My favourite in SPCA - Dora!!

Then of course, the Langkawi Project (浮罗交怡计划 - 社区服务团) was also 1 of the activities under CSS and had no regrets joining it. Gained lots of experiences, met and made friends with other campuses students and also had 2 new foster families. If you wish to join, there's an intake next year. Please don't miss it!!

My foster family

My foster lil sis - Yee Lin

My foster lil bro and his cute lil sis

I LOVE you all man!!

Tug of War competition for the kids

We're a HAPPY family!!!

Worked as a Sensodyne promoter in TESCO. Made another bunch of new friends and experienced working life in a hypermarket =)

Well, like I said time really flies. My besties have graduated. Vivi is the 1st one to step out and work as a real graphic designer. Soo Yee has graduated in Hotel Management and wish to further her studies. Mei Fern graduated from diploma and is continuing her course in TARC. I will be the last one to graduate among them..... haih

Soo Yee's graduation

Reading the big card given by her AB family

Crying... because it was soo touching =)

I would say, this year is a busy year for me, but I really enjoyed it. I feel that life in uni and college must be full of memories because once we step out to work, life will be very different. While we can enjoy while learning, we must grab the chance to do so. Enjoy to the max people!!

What I am really satisfied and happy about is that my friendship with my besties and sisters is getting stronger day by day. We might not get to meet always, but our hearts are always together. Girls, you guys rock!! I love you all!!!

BESTIES forever babes!!!

Some of TOU members

11 years of friendship

LOVE you my dear!

But there is something missing that makes year 2008 incomplete for me. It has been a long time since we whole family (including my brother who's in Brisbane) went for a vacation. Though I went China with my dad and mom last year, but my bro was not with us. I kinda miss him =( I really hope that he can come back next year!

Sunset in Pantai Kerachut

My 1st time eating Dragon Fruit

Alright, now it's time for me to make my new year resolutions. I will make sure that I reach my target =) Goodbye year 2008! And people, let's welcome year 2009!!!!!!

Here I come year 2009!!!!!

-sherril=xuele-

RED and BLUE pendant

RED and BLUE pendants

Once, these 2 pieces of pendants were meant to be together. They fitted so nicely, so beautifully and was the only pair of pendant of this sort in the world.

But somehow, after some complications, they could not seem to fit into each other again. They tried every single way to fit in, but in the end what they gained were scratches all over their bodies due to misplacement of angles.

How could this happen?

Well, maybe the RED one has grown out of shape without realizing. It was under the sun all is while. Some of the edges melted due to the heat and could not be mended again. This happened because it was its first time experience as a pendant and did not know that excessive exposure under the sun could distort it.

But it may be the other way round.

The BLUE one has always liked to stay in cool places because it wanted to remain its shape nicely. However, the moment it met the BLUE one, somehow it was tempted to follow it to go under the sun more often. Without realizing, the temperature has started to change its shape bit by bit. But it did not mind at all. It knew that now it enjoys being under the sun.

However, the RED one did not notice these minor changes.

Whenever the BLUE one went to cooler places for some shade, the RED one was quite unhappy with it. It always told the BLUE one, "Don't go into the shades too often. You never know what FIERCE animals are hiding behind them. "

But how could the BLUE one do that?

The cool places were shades that it was used to and had grown up in them. How could it leave them behind just like this?? There was a special bond between it and the places and it was very fond of them.

So both of them started to argue about this matter, over and over again. Each time, no solution was made and therefore the argument went on and on.

Maybe it was because of the endless arguments. Maybe it was tired of arguing about the same thing over and over again.

The BLUE one realised that it must try to mend things back before it is too late. Unfortunately, they found out that they could no longer fit into each other.

Complications happened

So, which party should they put the blame on?

The BLUE one? For keep going back to the shady places?

The RED one? For always being under the sun?

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They should not blame anyone.

They should try to sort things out in order to be a perfect pair of pendant again.

But this needs time, and I hope the day will come where they can fit into each other again.

I hope so.

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-sherril=xuele-

I'm OK

My dear sisters, besties and friends, THANKS a lot. I'm fine, serious. Well, maybe I just need some time to think all over again.

I never thought that I would make such decision. Well, I might have thought of doing so but had always just THOUGHT without any action.

Is this the correct and best way to straighten things out?

I do not know for sure but at least, I do not regret but hell yea, I am sad.

The decision shattered my life into pieces and I was my own murderer. Who could I blame? I wanted it to end up like this and I was the one suggested it this way. So, I WAS THE MURDERER.

Maybe people around me will think that, "Hey, you look ok. These 2 days you still can hang out with friends and have fun. I don't see you're sad or depressed."

Well, that was just for temporary.

People, life still goes on and I still have my life to live on. It will just make things worse if I stay at home. Hanging out with friends makes me feel better. At least, they kept me talking while they were around me, so that I would not have so much time to think about those sad things. Moreover, they brightened up my day by cracking jokes and making me laugh. Yea I still can laugh because they are my true friends and I still have them by my side, to help me through this hard stage.

Ming, I'm sure we can pass through this hard stage together. I'm sorry to hear what happened to you. Guess your situation was much worse than mine. Never mind, be tough! We still have the rest with us right? =)

I still hope that, this decision will really straighten things out. I hope, "the day" that I'm waiting for will be waiting for me soon.

-sherril=xuele-

你是我那2万人的其中一人

"世界上会有2万个能与你有机会成为情人的人，有很多因素造成最后的后果。那些成不为男女朋友，最后可能反目可能成为好朋友。”


你们有看过这篇文章吗？

如果有一天，有人告诉你：“你是我那2万人的其中一人。。。”，你会感动吗？

坦白说，我会。

如果真的有人那么告诉你，大概那个人真的是很喜欢你。如果能与他成为情人，就代表你和他真的真的很有缘。真的要珍惜哦！

-雪乐-

Do you believe in Forever and Ever?

Well, I should not be blogging here, at this time - 9.23pm.

I have to send a report before 10pm to my secretary but I'm too lazy to think of how to write and how my program is going to run.

And 1 more thing, I'm too full right now. Haha just came back from Sri Ananda Bahwan in Little India together with Yee, Vivi and Chris. Seriously, I'm soooo full!!! I don't know how the hell the 3 of them can still proceed with dessert at somewhere I don't know. Good gracious!

It's so good to meet them just now. Haha chatted about life, work, friends, love life etc etc including gossips of course wahaha. They are what I always call true friends, just like my sisters =)

Well, yesterday I attended my relative's wedding. To be precise, it was actually my mum's cousin brother's wedding. So my cousins, aunts and uncles from KL of course came all the way to Penang to attend his wedding dinner.

The dinner was held in a restaurant in Island Plaza. Erm, the food was quite ok and nothing much to comment. Basically the whole event went on well. The couple was happily married and they flew to Bali today for their honeymoon.

Everything happened like in just a few seconds. In the morning, they had the traditional wedding ceremony of drinking tea and giving out ang pau. At night of course was their wedding dinner. After that, well it was their first night. So basically the whole thing happend, just like this. It started so fast, and ended so fast.

It's so easy huh? Haha... not to say envy la but well happy for them of course. I mean, not every couple can get married right? Sometimes I think that those people who agreed to marry are very courageous.

Why I say so? You see, the percentage of divorce is increasing everyday. It seems that, now, divorce is such a common thing in life.

If you know 1 day you'll divorce, why you care to marry?

Of course you'll say, "Nobody knows or expects when to divorce and that is why they got married." Ok, yea that's the point. Noone knows for sure. Unless you have those planned marriage and divorce to get his or her properties. Well, that's a whole different story then.

What I want to say is that, if 1 decides to marry, that means he or she wants to live forever and ever with his or her partner. But, how do you know for sure how long you'll live happily with your partner? 1 year, 3 years, 10 years, 30 years or whole life??

Thank god I have a wonderful complete family. But this does not stop me from thinking of failure in love and marriage. Ok, I know I'm still too young to talk bout marriage but it's still my future right? Unless I plan not to marry. But I don't plan like this. Every girl of course will want to live happily ever after with her dream man and so do I. But the point is, how do you know for sure which guy is your dream man after all?

If you're already in a 4-year relationship, so what? I've seen friends who are in love for years and yet in the end they broke up. Why? Don't ask me. I don't know.

Seems that there's no guarantee in love.The most important thing is that, cherish every moment you have with the one you love now. Who knows, he or she might be your dream guy or girl. If not, then you should not have any regrets because you've done your best in the relationship and you cherished every moment with him or her.

Do you believe in forever and ever?

If you do, it's a good thing because you have found someone good. If not, then let time prove it.

For me, I don't. Because promises that were made were meant to be broken, and I hate broken promises.

-sherril=xuele-

About Working Life and So-called "Supervisor"

It's now already past 12 midnight, meaning now it's 24th of November.

HAPPY 2oth BIRTHDAY, CHIN HONG!!!!

Haha yeah it's his birthday but could not manage to call him because he was too busy with wishes from his other friends.

Anyway, may all your birthday wishes come true, Chin Hong. I sincerely hope that from now onwards you'll always be happy. And to let you know, you've been a great friend, and is still a great friend =) Thanks for everything~!

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Today will be the 12th day of my work, which was scheduled as a 14-day project. That means there are 2 more days to go! YAHOO!!!!

Well, currently I'm a promoter for a product and I've started work since 13th of Nov. I've been working non-stop since then. So after Wednesday, I'll have freedom again!!! =)

Well, at first I was kinda reluctant to go to work though the pay was a bit attractive. The reason was because, Kevin (Chi Hwa), who was supposed to work with me told me that he could not work for this project anymore as he just had braces on.

I was like, "WHAT? When on earth did you have braces on?? And why did you have it on RIGHT BEFORE the project?! Why must you leave me alone with SOMEONE?" *sob*

So, SOMEONE would be taking over his place. At the thought of SOMEONE, I started to get worried. I was scared that this person, my so-called "supervisor" might be very strict, serious and we might not have topics to chat and that would make the 14-day project damn boring.

The first day I saw that SOMEONE I felt that he LOOKED LIKE a pro. Gosh, I was getting more nervous. He seemed so responsible, so strict until I did not dare to do crazy things like I usually do. What I could do was to listen and follow everything that he said. The rest of the time I just kept quiet, though at times I was too curious so I asked him a few questions.

Well, this SOMEONE, whose name is Benny - 贝尼 or 贝妮 (given by me haha) turned out to be someone super nice, friendly, crazy and talkative like me. WHOA!!! It's too good to be true! Seriously working with him is so much fun, and I also had the chance to learn a little bit of marketing skills.

He's a UTAR Kampar Marketing student and is also my junior haha. You know, I've never seen such a guy like him before who is always so conscious about slimming down (though he's already slim) and his daily calories and nutrient intake counts. Ask him how much protein must we consume a day or how to eat at the cheapest way, he for sure can give you a very satisfied answer. =)

The best thing I like about him while working with him for this long is that he never simply use his "supervisor" power to scold or order to do stuffs. Though of course, when I did any mistake, he would tell me in a quite strict manner.

Anyway, he told me a lot about his family, good friends, weird classmates, weird neighbours,university, past relationships, current target, opinions and thoughts, gossips etc etc. And I don't know why we were always laughing madly. At times I just could not control myself and laughed like a mad woman. I hope that noone complained about us and noone will complain us for the remaining 3 days.

Working on weekends is more fun than working on weekdays because on weekends, there are many promoters promoting various kind of products. I made many new friends and they are all very nice and friendly people.

As for weekdays, there are only both of us and a few aunties, and the crowd is so much smaller compared to the crowd in weekends. So the only thing source of entertainment is from ourselves, by cracking and stupid jokes and crapping some silly stuffs. Luckily sometimes Kevin came to find us or I met my old friends and uni friends. But of course we must be serious also because we are required to hit target sales.

Well Benny, if you happen see this post don't think that I've climbed over your head ya. I just want to let you know HOW NICE ARE YOU haha. Thanks for not bullying me except for saying me short. LOL

The next post I'll tell you about the customers that we've met. But that'll be after my final day of working.

Hmm.... still not sleepy but I got to wake up early. Hope that tomorrow the sales can be mantained at the normal range.

Nitez everyone!

-sherril=xuele-

I Don't Know Why

It's already 5.28am and yet I'm still here blogging.

Actually I've fallen asleep way before 11pm but suddenly woke up at 4 something. Finally I've made up my mind to reply that message.

I don't know why, I just don't know how to react.

Left a post in TOU blog, guess my sisters will help me after reading what I've posted up.

Somehow, the message touched my heart, more than I thought. I hope, things will still be the same because I love how it always is =)

Just listened to Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. I think, I'm already in love with this song.

I don't know why tonight after listening to it, my mood is so down...

Well, below is the movie clip:




"Fall For You" by Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
[elyrics.net]

-sherril=xuele-

I'm being paranoid!

My heart's beating rapidly now. Many things are racing in my mind now. Suddenly in the middle of the night (3am) I heard someone's car alarm went off. It was familiar and sounded so much alike to the alarm of my shared car. Then someone pressed the honk, once. I did not dare to open the door, but I peeped through the curtains and I found that, it was not my car after all. Then whose car was it?

Lately there have been many break in cases in my neighbourhood. Just last weekend, someone broke into my neighbour's house. Yea, the one on the right side of my house, just right beside my house. Then before that, someone broke into the house opposite of mine. Scary right? I mean, imagine a break in case just beside your house!!!!

I heard that the thief not only went in, but ate and drank in the house. Wah... so daring man! That's why lately I'm kinda worried about my house safety, as well as mine and my parents. Our country has turned to be so dangerous.

I thought someone came into my house and wanted to drive my car away. Haha, I'm a worrysome. I tend to imagine things, keep worrying stuffs that people think it's impossible. But, seriously with so many break in cases nearby, how can I not to be worried?

Our society isn't safe anymore. In short, no matter where we are, we must always be alert. Haih...

-sherril=xuele

A Blur Blur Day!

Haha I recovered from a 2-week sickness and thought of ordering delivery Domino since I was kinda lazy to go out for lunch. Mom's not in and I'm home alone for the afternoon. Being a lazy bum, I went online and ordered delivery. I thought I was so smart not to have to step out of my house for lunch.

I was waiting and waiting and I thought the delivery guy was late and I was kinda pleased because normally if they are late, we will receive free coupons as a sign of apology. Then my phone rang and I was pretty sure it was a call from Domino's Pizza at Krystal Point.

The conversation was as below:

Domino : Hello, is this Miss Sherril?
Me : Yeah speaking. [thinking they cannot locate my house]
Domino : Did you just order a personal pizza "Chicken Pepperoni"?
Me : Yeah.
Domino : What was your take out time, miss?
Me : Er 1.25pm. [that time it was already about 1.45pm]
Domino : Yeah, so erm, are you now on your way to collect, miss?
Me : [stunned for a while] Yeah sure I'm now on my way.
[I was still sitting in my living room!]
Domino : Ok thank you.
Me : Thanks.

After ending the call I was like, "What? I thought I ordered delivery? Why must I go and collect myself????"

Then I went online to check the email confirmation content and it stated:

"Take-Out Order"

Oh my goodness! So I've mistakenly online ordered a take away order! Shit! I thought I can just laze around at home waiting for the delivery guy to arrive. And now, I have to drive out to collect it. ISH! No wonder I'm known as Blur Blur!!!!

Aiks, a lesson for me to learn. When I reached there and told them I'm Sherril who ordered online, the guy at the counter was like, "Ok." Giving me a face saying that, "Finally you've come to collect. LOL"

Anyway, maybe it's fated to be like this. Because when I stepped in Domino's I heard someone called "Sherril Leow". I turned and saw my ex-high school mate - Xuan Yi. If I didn't make such stupid mistake I wouldn't have met her. Didn't really chat with her though because she was with her friends.

A really BLUR BLUR day!

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Went to APT Hair Saloon and Academy at Burmah Road yesterday to have my hair cut by my cousin. She took a hairdressing course there and is going to graduate by the end of this year. She needed me to be her model for her portfolio and I agreed to let her cut and dye =)

Not bad I would say hehe because I get to cut free and wash hair for free ^_^ Well, of course her teacher guided her on how to cut my hair and I'm quite satisfied with the look. I wanted to change a bit of style but don't feel like cutting it short and she really gave me a new look =)

I'll go to her house during the weekend and let her dye. I wanted to dye dark blue but she said it's not lasting. Haih...... should be dyeing some dark brown colour, or maybe dark red purple or something like that. I always wanted some special colour like dark blue or purple but all not lasting. Any suggestions?

Below are some photos of the process :

She started off by shampooing my hair.
See I was totally enjoying the washing + massaging!

Washing + conditioning

Started to cut my hair at the back.
Or like people always say in Hokkien: "Siak Pok"





This technique is called something like "slide cut". (simply crap)






See the 45 degree angle? It's different from the above.
Her 1st time trying out new technique with her teacher's scissors.




Time to blow my hair!





Argghh!!! GHOST a!!!!
Never knew my fringe was that long.




Tadaa!!
My new look with my hairstylist - my cousin - Greenish Ching.

Before and After look.
Somehow I look fatter after a couple of hours huh?

p/s: Please IGNORE the stupid looking face on the right!

Side view of Before and After.




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I know I've not blogged for like a month. Well, beforehand I was busy with the Langkawi Project stuffs. Then when I was back in Penang, I immediately fall sick for about 2 weeks. So now only I can start blogging wahaha... Sorry people!

Yay, tomorrow mom's coming home I'm so happy!!! Haha no more lonely lunches!

-sherril=xuele-