Bla bla bla...

Wah... it's already 1.30 am and I am just starting to write this post.

Nearly dozed off in front of the laptop just now. My eyelids were so heavy and my mind was so damn blank. Course rep suddenly said that we have to hand in the stupid Manufacturing tutorial tomorrow (I remember the lecturer said we only need to hand in 2 weeks later, which will be next friday). Whatever... so started to search online for the functions and purposes of mold, cope and drag in sand casting. But all the results shown didn't have a clear point because most of them are mainly about the process of sand casting. Moreover, it seems that cope and drag are parts that are quite unimportant in the process. So worse still, less info could be found! =( Cincai la...

Went to meet my dad this afternoon in Mid Valley. He went to Mid Valley for some meeting so he "shun bian" brought some things over for me. So good of him!!! Hehe... so finally today, I can have a larger table! Well, for your information, I didn't buy a new table. Instead, I extended the length of my table by putting a piece of custom-made wood on top. The best thing is, the wood is wrapped up with a light blue colour plastic. My favourite colour!!! =) Suddenly, my table is so spacious that I have no problem at all to online and do homework at the same time =)

He even brought his guitar for me. He bought this guitar when he was studying in Taiwan. Wah... that time he was only a university student. Meaning that, this guitar is a historic item wakaka. Nvm, it still can be used.. so don't waste money! Like I promised, when I learn to play my 1st song by using guitar (which will definitely be Jay Chou's song), I will play for you all to listen. Hope you all won't turn deaf after listening =)

Hehe... in this sentence --->"Meaning that, this guitar is a historic item wakaka.", the word "wakaka" made me think of an emotion. If you're someone who often use MSN with cute emotical icons, I'm sure you all have come across the icon shown below:
<-- seen before? It's an emo icon who's laughing evilly with both hands on his waist=) Haha, looking forward to see you laugh like that in front of me!! It won't be scary.. instead, this can help you to exercise your cheekbones =) Just kidding...so no offence ya!

When I was window shopping in Mid Valley while waiting for my dad's arrival, I went into Room again. Actually just went in yesterday in KLCC, but I couldn't resist myself from entering it again because "Cupido" is so cute!!! Hehe... "Cupido" is actually a doll from Dooodolls USA. Cupido is cute but too bad it represents Pieces, not Libra. SO SAD!!! *sobsob* The doll representative of Libra is called Blur Blur, which suits me well because I'm known to some as Freaky Blurzz / Blur Blur (chin hong always call me that) / Blur girl. However, it's not as cute as Cupido. Ish.. I WANT CUPIDO!!!!=) You all can visit Dooodolls USA for more information and pictures. Who knows, you might fall in love with one of the dolls =) Well, Cupido might not be the cutest, but I love it because there's a red heart sewn on it. I'm sure if everyone has this heart of love, there will be NO MORE wars in the world. Haha.. how I wish this can happen.

About 1 more month I'll be having my finals d. I guess now I really really need to buck up so that I can finish revising before finals. Apart from studying, I'm thinking and worrying about my trip to Redang. There are so many considerations that must be taken account to ensure that this trip will be a memorable one. I really hope that nothing goes wrong and every participant will enjoy themselves. By the way, should I join Taman Negara trip or be a committee member of Orientation? Actually wanted to join both but just knew from Kelvin that both events actually clash together. How? In dilemma now. Can someone please give me an opinion on which to choose?

Alright before ending today's post, let me treat you with 4 jokes. Hehe..these jokes were sent to me by my friend because that time I was so damn blur and sleepy. They're in chinese so I'm sorry if you don't understand them=)

1.
20樓跳下和2樓跳下的差別:

從20樓跳下來：

阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿!!!!!!!!!砰




從2樓跳下來：

砰!!!!!!!!!!阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿阿!!!!....

*sweat huh? hehe

2.
有一位精神病院的醫生問患者︰「如果我把你的一隻耳朵割掉，你會怎麼樣？」
患者回答︰「那我會聽不到。」
醫生聽了︰「嗯，那很正常。如果我再把你另一隻耳朵也割掉，你會怎麼樣？」
患者回答︰「那我會看不到。」
醫生開始緊張︰「怎麼會看不到呢？」
患者回答︰「因為眼鏡會掉下來。」

3.
一個精神病院的護士看到一個病人在寫信，
非常好奇，想去偷瞄，可是病人不給她看。
護士忍不住問︰「給誰寫信啊？ 」
病人回答：「寫給我自己啊！」
護士好奇心更盛，心想：「怎會有人寫信給自己呢？！」
於是又問：「寫些什麼啊？」
病人說：「你神經病啊！！我還沒收到信，我怎麼會知道！」

4.
有一位病人來找精神科醫生：「醫生..怎麼辦？？我一直覺得我是一隻鳥！」
醫生：「喔！？那很嚴重喔！從什麼時候開始的？」
病人：「從我還是一隻小鳥的時候。」

Haha, hope you all are entertained by these jokes. It's really time to sleep d, some more tomorrow I need to go to uni at 8am to continue with my G-Clamp. Arrghhh... thinking about grinding that stupid thing really drives me crazy!! Nvm... I can do it I can do it! Hehe.. oh yeah one more thing, if you all have the time, do watch "老师嫁老大" because it's really funny! Hehe.. I practically laughed from the beginning till the end of the movie.

Alright, good night and sweet dreams everyone. Have a nice Friday ya... cheers~!

-sherril=xuele-

It's really a BETTER day! =)

Like what I said in my last post "Tomorrow will always be a better day", today is really a better day. In fact, it's a GREAT day! =) Yesterday, I couldn't control anymore and broke down. So today, I woke up with swollen eyes, which made me look DAMN UGLY!!! Anyway, this didn't stop me from having a great day. Really, I love my friends who really brightened up my day and made me SMILE!

Had a great day in uni today and I became BUBBLY once again. =) I was laughing since the moment I reached uni and until now, I'm still laughing. My twin started to tell me about her brother's joke when we were buying breakfast before our 1st class started. Haha, I tell you, by just listening to her laughter you can already laugh. That's my beloved twin.. I really LOVE her!

My classmates did silly things in class today. While waiting for my Manufacturing lecturer, one of my classmate (chun wei) slept off. The rest of my classmates (I think almost all the guys in MH) did silly poses in front of him and took photos. Haha, I tell you... he was sleeping so soundly that he didn't realize anything until I shouted,"Hey, why you all took photo without us?" The photos were circulated among us. Everyone laughed like hell. Then my twin did another silly thing. She changed Davis's phone's wallpaper to Shyuan's picture (a very cute picture) silently. Haha.. then the phone was circulated again among us. Davis was not only NOT angry, instead he WAS laughing as though he actually enjoyed it. Hmm.. I can really bet with you all that he really likes my cousion, Shyuan!

Right after Manufacturing was Maths II. Today's maths lecture was a 2-hour lecture. Normally I can only concentrate for the first hour. So today after 1 hour of lecture, my mind started to wander off. Haha.. maybe day dreamt a bit. Then I started to read newspapers to get updated about the election thing. It was then I came across an article about U-HU-HU Cheesecake. Haha.. I repeat, it's U-HU-HU CHEESECAKE. Seriously, that article was advertising about this U-HU-HU cheesecake which will be sold in "The Loaf" in Pavilion, starting from 15th March. The word "U-HU-HU" really caught my attention so I decided to tell my twin about this cheesecake. I purposely pronounced it funnily and we were laughing madly in class. The class was quiet so we were trying hard to control the "loudness" of our laughter. Haha... sometimes it's so nice to disturb her when I couldn't pay attention. So peeps, maybe you can try to pronounce the word "U-HU-HU"? I don't know, but I really made it sound funny in class. =)

Had a super full lunch today because my twin wanted to order fillet burger. So we called for McD delivery and ordered 3 sets of fillet-o-fish (our favourite!). Today my twin was the 1st to finish her meal... which was a miracle. This is because 99.99999% of the times we eat together, all of us have to wait for her! Guess she was really hungry. Haha... twin a twin, I thought both of us are on diet plan? =)

Today I had one of the most enjoyable time chatting in msn. Basically it was because I was practically laughing the whole way while chatting. Because of my msn nickname "U-HU-HU cheesecake.. haha try to pronounce "U-HU-HU".. we laughed like mad when I pronounced it =)", we started to talk about cheesecake. Haha, now I know I have another cheese-lover kaki. Until now, I still can't picture him burying his face in a large cheesecake...trying to finish it up without suffocating himself. That will really be a funny sight! Hehe.. no offence ya!

Finally today I met my sin yee mei mei in msn. After disappearing for the past half year, finally today I get to chat with her again. Just knew that she's now in Washington as a temporary citizen with her aunt. Cool huh? She's formerly a Bukit Jalil Scl student who can play tennis professionally =) Owh.. talking about tennis, it's been ages since I last played! Miss those times when I play... I WANT TO PLAY TENNIS!

Hmm.. I think I have to stop here, if not I would really become like what Yit Fung said "BUBBLERIL" <--- that's my new nickname. LOL... tomorrow morning have to wake up at about 5am because the 5 of us are going for early dim sum before returning to uni to complete our G-Clamp project. "Semangat" huh? Haha.. we're already well known for being crazy =)

By the way my dear sisters, I hope you all will feel better tomorrow. STPM results is not everything. Cheer up and move forward to pursue your dreams. I have faith in you all and I strongly believe that you all can once again stand up and move forward! Take care alright? Muacks.. I love you guys. Gambate!

Before I really end, I would like to thank devil pig for listening to me last night when I broke down. Da ge, no worries, I'm fine as ever. Like what Thomas said I can do it if I set the goal in my mind. Jhu, Jess, baby ong and my housemates.... I'm alright so no worries ya! Thanks for being so caring... you guys are really great! Thank you!

-sherril=xuele-

MONDAY = MOODY-day?

It's now 11.45pm, and I just woke up from an 1-hour nap. Haha, should I even call that a nap? Nope, I guess not. That was just some rest I gave myself, to rest my body, my mind, and my feelings. I, just want to calm myself down, and stop thinking about those unhappy stuffs. I'm just finding a way, to regain my strength. I just want to be the real me, who has the courage to face challenges and won't step back. And I think, I've found myself =)

I day-dreamed a lot when I was on my way to uni in the morning to do my G-clamp project. Haha, I might be day-dreaming about impossible incidents, but I found myself filling with hope and the day seemed very bright to me. So sometimes day-dream is good because it gives you hope!

After "grinding" that G-clamp thing for bout 2 and a half hours, I was filled with 臭铁味．That smell was disgusting. No matter what I was doing in uni like eating, doing homework, taking down notes or even sleeping, that smell... was really really SMELLY!!! Haihz, I need to bear with this smell for the next few weeks, until my project is done. I think it's a bit stupid to ask us to do G-clamp ("apit-G" in Malay) for our Manufacturing Technology project. Why of all the things we can do, we MUST do G-Clamp??? Haha... never mind, whatever it is, I will do my best! =)

Went to guitar class just now. It was a bit tough today at first because of my small palm and short fingers. Haha... it was difficult for me to press the keys correctly as I have to spread my fingers wide apart. Then, the boss of the center (Chao Yan) changed a guitar for me where the frets are A BIT closer. I say again, A BIT only but that really made a huge difference. At least after using this particular guitar, I did not tend to touch those irrelevant strings. Thanks a lot! Haha... learnt something new and the 1 - hour lesson is so short for me. Seemed like I was there for only a few minutes =( But it was great because everytime I go there for lesson, I can shove all my worries and problems aside temporarily.

Haha, today I'm somewhat sensitive to what people are talking about. When Thomas said I'm bubbly, I was laughing. I mean, really laughing from my heart and I felt good about it =) I was like, "Why bubbly? Bubbly makes me think of bubbles la." Haha... this word made me think that I'm like a bubble, fat and round wakaka. Then da ge said something which I felt like crying because I was touched haha. Crazy huh? Laugh and cry at the same time... BUBBLY.. I think I will dream of bubbles tonight. And if I do, hahahaahah.... I think I will laugh loudly in my sleep.

Hmm...it's nice to blog when you get to write your thoughts and feelings and to know that there are people who are actually taking the effort to read and understand you. At least, here, I can release everything in me in a nice way. Spending about 1 hour for blogging every night is actually good, not only I can share my thoughts with my friends, indirectly when I blog, I tend to self-reflect a lot. Guess I can see my mistakes from here because when I blog, I'm in my own world again....... analyzing and thinking =)

I'm feeling great once again, thanks to all my friends! There's 1 thing that I would like to learn from a friend.. that is to leave all my sadness in my own world. If I can, I can be as successful as him =) Alright, till here tonight! Goodnight everybody, sleep tight and sweet dreams! No matter what, tomorrow will always be a better day! Believe in yourself and you can do it!

-sherril=xuele-

BN or OPPOSITION?

It's now 15 minutes past 12 midnight. So now it's already 0015 of 9th of March 2008. Most of the polling results are out.. and it's confirmed that OPPOSITION is taking over Penang!

It's weird to see that BN is losing this bad. I mean, almost all the places are won by oppositions. How could this be? Well, not to say I'm standing on which side, but it's really weird to see this situation. Today (9th of March - Sunday) will be quite dangerous, please stay at home if possible to avoid any unnecessary incidents.

Alright, let's not talk about the election since I'm still not eligible for voting. Was at first very interested in this year's election because the oppositions were very "semangat" opposing, but now started to worry about tomorrow's safety. We're really "mao dun".

Anyway, I'm not sure why once again I'm down. Maybe I know the reason, but I just don't want to admit it's that reason. In fact, I can't even bring myself to tell anyone that THIS IS the reason. Haha.. maybe I need more time to think and analyze. Yea, time is what I need for now. TIME!!

Today I set a test in friendster to see how much do my friends know about me. Well, I actually expected some of them to do all correctly, but haha maybe the answers are too close. Many complained that it's difficult. But after reading the questions for maybe more than 10 times, I still feel that they're easy. Haha, really that difficult meh? Anyway, feel free to drop by my friendster to do the test ya! My sisters and besties, you all better score well. If not.. hahaha.... you all will know *evil laugh*

Alright, nothing much to blog today. Gonna buy newspapers tomorrow to see the final polling results. As for those who are going to bowling competition (Thomas, Ricky, Kuan Phang and May Chern), good luck and all the best! Haha.. they're from 2 different teams. So I'm not standing on any sides, but for sure I'm supporting both teams! Gambate!!!

-sherril=xuele-

An unusual quiet day

Finally I'm home. Finally I can relax a bit. It has been a tiring day for me although I didn't have any classes today. Went sing k with my bunch of classmates just now, altogether there were 8 of us (me, baby ong, shyuan, yit fung, yee loong, tze yu, siang kuak and davis). Today I was unusually quiet during "sing k", I'm not sure what's wrong with me. I just know that,today, I didn't have the mood to sing. I even sang my hubby's song out of tune.... so unlike me =(

Maybe I was a bit tired since I went to uni since 8am...Maybe the room was too cold....Maybe the songs that my friends chose were not familiar to me...Maybe, the songs that I sang at the very beginning made me think of many things.... Yeah, I think that should be the reason.

When I'm quiet that doesn't mean I'm down. Many of the times, I'm just too obsessed in my own world, sorting things out or analyzing problems. Friends usually will think that I'm in bad mood, but actually I'm not. However, it's true that if I'm in my own world, I do not like people to disturb me. Haha.. so be more observant ya.

At this kind of situation, I usually don't talk much. Instead, I tend to observe my surroundings more. Sometimes when I quiet down, I can somehow find solution to my problems and worries. Yea, I love to smile and laugh, but there are times I tend to think and worry too much. Am I being too negative, or I'm just preparing myself for the worst possibility? I don't know... I really don't know....

We're all living in a realistic world, and sometimes we really have to be a bit realistic to survive in this world. Many things if we don't experience ourselves, we really don't know what's the feeling to be in some particular situations. Haha well, I don't want to make things complicated here. Anyway, it's just another day of me thinking too much =)

When you're stressed up, listening to songs can calm you down. I'm listening to my hubby's songs now... and I'm fine again. His songs mean a lot to me.... I owe him a lot haha. I said till as if he knows who am I huh? I'm day dreaming again... lalala

Alright, till here for today. Might be going to night market later with hsemate.. depends la. I miss my besties and my dear sisters in PG. I feel like hugging everyone of you and cry. Haha... I miss u all... I really miss u all!

-sherril=xuele-

BBQ Steamboat!

Haha... went for BBQ Steamboat just now with my coursemates. There were altogether 13 people. I guess this is only the 2nd time our course has this kind of gathering or outing together among 36 of us. As in uni we are divided into 2 tutorial groups, we tend to hang out more often with our own groupmates. Tonight's dinner is something that can strengthen the bond between these 2 groups.

My twin (baby ong), Shyuan and I were the only gals. (nothing to be surprised of since there are only 6 girls out of 36 students) Well, we have lots of fun. We ate, talked, joked, laughed and did silly things. Imagine, we reached there about 730 pm but reached home around 11pm. There wasn't any awkward moments which is a very good sign. Overall, I enjoyed myself a lot and laughed damn a lot. All because of ah fang's jokes. As usual, he loves to tease my twin (in a good way).. and we were all perli-ing shyuan and davis (course-rep). Well, actually, we perli shyuan and him EVERY SINGLE DAY without fail haha.

Tomorrow I don't have any classes but I'll reach uni at 8am to "jaga" my booth for the Redang trip. Well, Thomas said he admire my commitment and I appreciate that. I just hope that this trip will be successful because Traveler's Den's objective is to organise trips and members can travel every now and then HAPPILY. I would like to express my gratitude to those who have helped me to organise this trip as well as to promote this trip to their friends. I really appreciate all your efforts! Thank you guys! I love you all haha... but I still love Jay the most =)

Alright, promised da ge will sleep after I'm done with the flyers. But I'm still here haha... nvm nvm.. have to chao d. Take care everyone! If you happen to be a FES student and are interested in this 3 Islands Hopping Trip during May semester break, you're always welcome to come to our booth at canteen. See you then! Alright, goodnight everyone! Sleep tight, sweet dreams... remember to dream about me, then you'll have a good day ahead of you! =)

-sherril=xuele-

Back again =)

Wow, never realize that I've neglected this blog for nearly 3 weeks. Well, I've been busy with society stuffs, mountains of homework, reports n assignments. And of course, 3 tests in one shot. Haha, can you imagine how hectic is that?

Finally, today I can get some rest and relax myself a bit. For the past 5 days, everyone in my course was living in a tension state. Not only we need to hand up assignments and some even reports, we also have to study for 3 tests in just a few days - Dynamics, Circuit Theory and Manufacturing Technology.

Haha, just by looking at the names of the subjects, I'm sure you will know that they're DIFFICULT! Well, what to do? I'm taking an engineering course, which involves those complicated calculations and weird theorems and concepts. Maybe people will say that engineering courses are difficult, which I've never doubt about that. But to me, I think that every course will have their own difficult subjects to deal with. If not, what's the use of taking up a course?

Sometimes I ask myself, do I regret taking this course since engineering courses WERE NEVER in my option list of choices when I was in secondary.. because I HATE physics =) I admit, at the very beginning I regretted a bit. Frankly, I don't have much passion in circuits and mechanical stuffs. However after some time, I guess Mechatronics is not that bad. I may not have the passion, but I think I can still deal with it. My passion, I guess I will just take it as a minor subject if I have the chance, since this world is a realistic world. Not everyone's passion can be an income. But truthfully, I've started to love mechatronics more =) Looking forward to study things related to robitics like sensors, actuators etc. Here's a definition for a Mechatronics Engineering degree from Wikipedia - "A typical mechatronic engineering degree would involve classes in engineering mathematics, mechanics, machine component design, mechanical design, thermodynamic circuits and systems, electronics and communications, control theory, programming, digital signal processing, power engineering, robotics and usually a final year thesis. "

Without doubt, life in degree is much more enjoyable and contented compared to foundation life. Maybe transportation here is more convenient, maybe the people here are more friendly, maybe my housemates are funny and nice. Maybe this maybe that... but the one reason that really makes my life in degree different from foundation is very obvious. I'm not going to state it here because I don't want to portray any hatred in my blog. Anyway, thank god at least the people in my course are ok and there are no politics in my society. I am really grateful with what I have now and I'll cherish every moment of my life here in UTAR with my friends.

Many events and time spent with my uni friends and buddies are playing in my mind now. We might be always busy with homework and stuffs, but still we manage to hang out together and have fun. Check out for the pictures of my happy moments here in Setapak ya. Hehe... will upload soon.

Alright, need to read through proposal and go to bed early. Need to have some rest..I mean REAL rest. Hehe.. nights everyone! Sleep tight tight!

-sherril=xuele-

HAPPY VALENTINES!

First of all, I would like to wish everyone "Happy Valentines!!!!!" Haha.. no matter you are married, attached, single but not available, single and available or whatever, I hope all of you have had a great valentines day.

Today is nothing special to me. Feb 14, so what? Stayed at home for the whole morning, then went to uni to attend a 3-hr session Dynamics lab. Came back to finish my last Dynamics report... which until I'm still working on it. Feb 14 to me..... is nth. People asked me, didn't go out for dating? I said, yeah I did. I dated lab and reports. =)

Hmm..... all these years, I've never had any celebration on Valentine's Day. Last year was the 1st time I received a Valentines card, quite touched but too bad... my 1st valentine's card wasn't from my bf, but a close good friend. Who says we cannot receive valentines cards and prezzies from friends? Only narrow-minded will say cannot. To me, they gave to cheer and wish us. If my bunch of besties are here, I would definitely celebrate with them. I miss them!!!

Joshua's and my philosophy: "Everyday is Valentine's Day." How many of you out there agree with us? Haha.... anyway everyone has their own opinion. But the most important thing is, you must always treat your the other half equally good on normal days.

A friend made his confession today. He told me when we met online. I salute him for his courage and happy-go-lucky-ness. Though he was rejected, he could still take it in a nice way. No wonder my 1st impression on him was correct - a happy-go-lucky guy who loves to smile. Anyway.. gambate for the next time! Will send you the msg tone when I see u in uni tmr k? Hehe...."tweet tweet... tweet tweet... SMS!" SO CUTE!!!

Help someone else will always help yourself too! Haha... yesterday I helped Ricky (YS's 垒奇哥) to post something. In return, just now he promised to lend me Jay's latest Taiwan concert album. Yahoo~!!! Thanks lot... this time I would like to say, "你很配， 你很配当周杰伦的迷!" Haha... me and him are Jay's super fans. Next Saturday I'm going to Jay's concert!!!! Can't wait for it to come!!!!!! =)

Last but not least, Happy birthday to Valerine and my dear Hon Sern didi! May all of your dreams come true! Summore chao gui didi, pls take care my chao chao ya? Miss all of you in PG!

-sherril=xuele-

MEN... are they trustable?

Planned to do my homework tonight since my homework has piled up like a mountain before CNY. However, after I sent emails to 2 travel agents, Xue Xue asked me to drop by our self-created group blog - TenOfUs-, saying that there's an urgent article inside.

I haven't dropped by that blog for some time d. Not to say I'm not interested, it's just that I just don't have the time.
Was shocked to see that Chendy broke up with her bf and Xue Xue has some problems with her bf.

For Chendy's case:
For some lame reason, they quarrelled and decided to break up.
After 2 days, she wanted to get back together but it seems that the guy has been quite close with a gal after their breakup.
Maybe the guy started to like this new girl... or maybe he just want to "kek" Chendy.
No one knows for sure.
But for 1 thing everyone knows that this guy is hot among girls especially in college because they think he's handsome (excluding me. Never thought he's very good-looking).
Anywayz, he admitted that he's a flower-hearted guy.
But he's been with Chendy for 2 years!! (though they on and off) This shows that he's still quite loyal... but my other friend seemed to think the other way.
Maybe experiences will change our thinking and opinion... but still, shouldn't we be more optimistic??? Or we're actually just bluffing ourselves?

For Xue Xue's case:
She went to Germany since last month to continue with her studies.
Ever since she went there, her bf didnt really keep in touch with her anymore.
He never reply sms-s and calls.
When he answered he always answered in a cold way.
Did he do that on purpose to let her know about his intention to break up?
Or he's just busy?
Once, I was like him... that was when I was still in high school.
But now after so many years, I've grown up.
I know that, everyone in a relationship should be responsible with every single thing they do or say.

If problem occurs, we should face and settle it. We should NOT avoid it.

If we feel that the other party is not suitable for us, we should talk things out face to face... leaving no misunderstandings behind. We should NEVER just leave things there unsettledwithout any word, because relationship is not a 1 man show, it is a PAIR show.

If we agree to start a relationship, we should have the responsibility to take good care of it.

I just don't understand why there are people willing to start a relationship but in the end put their gf/bf aside by giving lame excuse like: I need to take care of my family. Studies is important to me.

If you think you cannot cope with what you are facing now, you shouldn't have started a relationship!!!!!
LOL...... because of this kind of ppl, many ppl are suffering because of them.

Men... has shown many negative sides of themselves to me.
Flower-hearted, mouth full of lies, irresponsible, changed heart and loved my friends instead...
They might not be my bf, but what they did will influence my point of view towards guys.
I don't deny there are still good guys around, but out of 10 guys, how many of them are truly good?
Excluding my close friends.... I really don't know how many are good.
I don't care how many are bad, I just hate it when they hurt my friends.
Men..... are they trustable?
I don't know and I hope he won't be like those guys I've met.
I've put all my faith and trust in him and I hope.... I really hope, he won't fall in love with another girl.
The pain... is really unbearable.

I hope that my friends will eventually stand up and be happy again. All the best sisters!

-sherril=xuele-

My Worst CNY =(

It's now already 11 hours after the accident, but I'm still down and stressed up. The sound of my car hitting the divider kept playing in my mind..... the moment I knocked onto the divider is a moment that I couldn't forget. How I was so shocked, so stunned, so worried and trembled with cold.....the feelings were very complicated at that time. Everything happened in just a second.

After the incident, I kept asking myself, why did my car hit the divider? Was it because my front right tyre punctured and skidded off? Or was I sleepy at that time? Or maybe there were some other reasons? Seriously until now, I still couldn't get a real answer.... All I could recall was there was a short term dark moment right before I hit the divider. Because of this, I felt guiltier because as long as I can't recall, I would feel that the accident was caused by my sleepiness...... but my mom said it's normal that we couldn't recall that dark moment because she experienced this also.

Lately it's really a bad time for my family. Last year before CNY, I met with my first accident. An old lady knocked the back of my Waja, which was considered a bit bad. Last Oct, I got to know I have some spinal problem. On 19th Jan when I was still in KL, both my parents met with a terrible accident. The car - Iswara was badly damaged but luckily, they were safe. And now, I'm here again with this accident, this time it was Waja again.

All this while, I knew that Waja and I are like enemies... whenever I met with accident or problems with car, it will be Waja. It's never Iswara. EVERYTIME alsoWaja... actually everytime before accident, there were bad omen shown to me. Yesterday many problems and dilemma occurred. Now I really understand that every decision will lead to different conclusion. Eventhough it's just a small matter, it still counts............

Frankly, after my first accident, this time I reacted very quickly. If not I think I would have went to the other side of highway. Somehow I managed to drive my car to the side of the road and bring it to a stop, called him and my parents. And I actually didn't cry.........that's so abnormal. Too shock maybe.

Many people would not like their parents to scold them after accident. But I felt guilty because my parents didn't scold but instead consoled me and helped my to settle everything. I felt even guiltier when my mom doesn't want me to pay part of the repair expenses. I felt bad that I woke them up early in the morning for help and let them settle everything. I felt so terrible......so useless... and so helpless....

I wouldn't dare to drive for some time but nvm.... I'll be back to KL tomorrow and I won't have car there. Just hope that those who are driving must always be careful. I felt really grateful that I'm safe and I didn't knock onto anyone..... THANK GOD!

-sherril=xuele-